maybe this is just what i need.
what i wouldn't give to be able to live somewhere else. just pack up all my shit and fucking leave. not look back because i can't fucking stand it here anymore. no regrets. just a new start. clean slate. someone looking for me. and me not always pushing away. or changing. too much has changed this year. i can't stand to watch all this go down anymore. i'm sick of people being worried about me. don't be. i'm sick of hearing it. i'm fine. but on the other hand if i stay here that much longer going how things are going i'm going to blow up one random day and not even care. my mind changed so much i can't even trust it. my mind changed me so much i can't even trust myself.