Onward
We push. We want more time, more money, more love, more sunshine...I wonder if it is part of being human to always want more. I guess if I could want one more thing it would be more love. I want to give more love. Sometimes I feel as though I have so much love in my heart, but there aren't enough people to give it to that I feel would want it. And Sometimes I don't feel as though I am loving enough.
One of the women I work with, A, has shown me so much love and taught me how without expectations and social norms we could give out our love without shame or reservation. I find that she is so sensitive and caring without fear or hesitation...
I have been to the gym twice and it feels good to be back. I feel like when I sweat it's the fat oozing from my skin and making me healthier. The eating is hard...portions are my main priority this week and I have been working hard at the snacking and mindless eating. I guess I was hoping to feel less bloated at this point, but I know it will come.
My Dad and Becki are on their way to Portland right now and I am so excited, yet so anxious. I want so badly for their approval and even surprise at how well things are going. I wish I didn't look for validation. I am working on that, but I know it will take time.
I am cutting this one short due to my co-worker looming....always looming...
One of the women I work with, A, has shown me so much love and taught me how without expectations and social norms we could give out our love without shame or reservation. I find that she is so sensitive and caring without fear or hesitation...
I have been to the gym twice and it feels good to be back. I feel like when I sweat it's the fat oozing from my skin and making me healthier. The eating is hard...portions are my main priority this week and I have been working hard at the snacking and mindless eating. I guess I was hoping to feel less bloated at this point, but I know it will come.
My Dad and Becki are on their way to Portland right now and I am so excited, yet so anxious. I want so badly for their approval and even surprise at how well things are going. I wish I didn't look for validation. I am working on that, but I know it will take time.
I am cutting this one short due to my co-worker looming....always looming...