not very buddhist today
my life is simmering. im angry about them cutting my medical again, im trying to keep the frustration at bay but it isnt really working. trying to figure out how to fix shit without losing my cool.
im hungover from pills and tired and the house is cold. bitch bitch bitch.
im seriously done with this band shit. im so sick of denying shows and having to email people about shit. this "hiatus" has bored me to being done and now all of the correspondance and turning shit down has worn on me. i am truly done. i am making a stoic effort to not answer anymore communications involving the band. if the boys want to be flaky, im perfectly capable as well.
its actually fine by me anyway, strangely.
i put so much effort into it and now im just tired and done.
we have a new addition to our home. his name is oscar and he is the offspring of a pregnant katrina rescue dog,everything is going well now but yesterday was a different story. he was really aggressive and loud, but now hes chill and my dogs are slowly accepting him despite his outbursts yesterday.
i need a new thing and i think i will get back into my painting. i have left it alone so long, it really is time to get reacquainted with one of my true loves. im having a hard time keeping the house up, i really need a new freelodger who will actually do the overflow of housework. yesterday i announced that all of the adults in this house this evening will be helping to take all the garbage to the curb since it was neglected last week and we now have a fricken mountain to haul down there. dust seems to think that he now has absolutely NO household duties as if his taking the trash down on thursdays was too much on his plate.
fucker. hes going to do some work around here if i have to whip him :)
he thinks he can come in here and dump his work filth everywhere and get away with it. HA!!!! nother thing comin honey....
so i need to put my head on straight today. i need to purge all of the negative bullshit filling up my space.
this should be fun and easy right/// hehehehe
im hungover from pills and tired and the house is cold. bitch bitch bitch.
im seriously done with this band shit. im so sick of denying shows and having to email people about shit. this "hiatus" has bored me to being done and now all of the correspondance and turning shit down has worn on me. i am truly done. i am making a stoic effort to not answer anymore communications involving the band. if the boys want to be flaky, im perfectly capable as well.
its actually fine by me anyway, strangely.
i put so much effort into it and now im just tired and done.
we have a new addition to our home. his name is oscar and he is the offspring of a pregnant katrina rescue dog,everything is going well now but yesterday was a different story. he was really aggressive and loud, but now hes chill and my dogs are slowly accepting him despite his outbursts yesterday.
i need a new thing and i think i will get back into my painting. i have left it alone so long, it really is time to get reacquainted with one of my true loves. im having a hard time keeping the house up, i really need a new freelodger who will actually do the overflow of housework. yesterday i announced that all of the adults in this house this evening will be helping to take all the garbage to the curb since it was neglected last week and we now have a fricken mountain to haul down there. dust seems to think that he now has absolutely NO household duties as if his taking the trash down on thursdays was too much on his plate.
fucker. hes going to do some work around here if i have to whip him :)
he thinks he can come in here and dump his work filth everywhere and get away with it. HA!!!! nother thing comin honey....
so i need to put my head on straight today. i need to purge all of the negative bullshit filling up my space.
this should be fun and easy right/// hehehehe