PROCRASTINATION UP THE HOO HAAAAAAAAAA
god, i suck. i'm so apathetic, i just can't fucking bring myself to study. i don't even know why i don't bother to read anymore. I have such a short attention span all of a sudden. I feel like I need a break, but it's absurd that now I can't even handle 4-day weeks. What the fuck is wrong with me, why am I such a fucking slacker? goddamn. High school was wayyy too easy, I did jack-all. honestly. I did almost everything at the last minute. I can't even believe I pulled off the marks I did, shit. What a fluke. I don't belong at UofT. Lazy people like me are always weeded out the first year. I have no will, it rules. My marks are sucking, I'm really not used to seeing fucking numbers like this, shit. Perhaps 5 courses was a mistake; I'm not one to work too hard...something that really only matters 1st year 'cause that GPA determines your program of study. I'm so fucked.
There are way too many fucking distractions. Like xbox. Fucking star wars! It's so good. And I've been playing Conquests of the Longbow again (old schooooollll) cause 12 year old RPG's are pretty much the only way to go. SIERRA LIIIVES
I hate commuting. The thought alone keeps me from getting out of bed and going to school sometimes. shit. I've been thinking maybe I have a really poor diet.. I guess I don't get enough proteins and vitamins or whatnot, I keep getting sick. I've had 2 fevers in 2 months, it's fucking disgusting.
It's really disenchanting; I KNOW i have a lot more sense than most of the douchebags i've thus far encountered (not to sound cocky - just as others have a lot more sense than me, i'm definitely nowhere near the top of the hierarchy) but it just angers me how subjective this all is. & MC tests are bullshit, really. I can't take more school... I'm so sick of it. I love listening to lectures, but there's so much fucking reading to do, and so much you have to be left to learn on your own. out of a fucking book. it's ridiculous. I really have a renewed appreciation for all my highschool teachers. They were amazing.
I was thinking this summer REALLY fucked up my sleeping pattern. During school i'd usually be in bed by 11, but for some reason, this school year, i'm in bed at earliest 2am, usually 4. What the hell.
So my real reason for being on was to look up books for my 'country profile' due on fucking Tuesday WHICH I HAVE NOT EVEN BEGUN TO ORGANIZE/RESEARCH ON THE SUBJECT OF (insert relatively democratic country here - GOD HELP ME I STILL HAVENT DECIDED).
My poli sci tutorial is apparenly hilarious, all the characters in my class really find the Ukranian TA laughable or something. I feel bad, she's a nice enough woman. You can tell she knows what she's talking about, I guess it's just her manner of speaking that throws it off a little, but it's hardly her fault, shit. eastern Europeans talk really fast and they do the same pausing "ehmmm" thing Persians do, it's irritating.
"Ukraine is weak!"
"I AM FROM UKRAINE"
"that's nice we're playing a game here, buddy"
I enjoy how everything can be related back to various episodes of seinfeld. (kramer & RISK on the subway ahah AHHHHH GOOD TIMES)
depressing how stupid shit like video games and tv give my life meaning occupy a lot of my time. way too much of it. I wish I was more active; I probably would be more focused on things more worthwhile (even if it's not apparent now, in the long run anyway). Like fucking school for instance. Or getting a new job after nearly two years of my life at the same bullshit. hahaha, I haven't even attempted to move up the 'corporate ladder', man.
Well I guess I'll go to bed, thank dog for daylight savings time. Oh wait, shit, there is still the matter of POUNDS OF HOMEWORK, ASSIGNMENTS AND READING. I am gay!
There are way too many fucking distractions. Like xbox. Fucking star wars! It's so good. And I've been playing Conquests of the Longbow again (old schooooollll) cause 12 year old RPG's are pretty much the only way to go. SIERRA LIIIVES
I hate commuting. The thought alone keeps me from getting out of bed and going to school sometimes. shit. I've been thinking maybe I have a really poor diet.. I guess I don't get enough proteins and vitamins or whatnot, I keep getting sick. I've had 2 fevers in 2 months, it's fucking disgusting.
It's really disenchanting; I KNOW i have a lot more sense than most of the douchebags i've thus far encountered (not to sound cocky - just as others have a lot more sense than me, i'm definitely nowhere near the top of the hierarchy) but it just angers me how subjective this all is. & MC tests are bullshit, really. I can't take more school... I'm so sick of it. I love listening to lectures, but there's so much fucking reading to do, and so much you have to be left to learn on your own. out of a fucking book. it's ridiculous. I really have a renewed appreciation for all my highschool teachers. They were amazing.
I was thinking this summer REALLY fucked up my sleeping pattern. During school i'd usually be in bed by 11, but for some reason, this school year, i'm in bed at earliest 2am, usually 4. What the hell.
So my real reason for being on was to look up books for my 'country profile' due on fucking Tuesday WHICH I HAVE NOT EVEN BEGUN TO ORGANIZE/RESEARCH ON THE SUBJECT OF (insert relatively democratic country here - GOD HELP ME I STILL HAVENT DECIDED).
My poli sci tutorial is apparenly hilarious, all the characters in my class really find the Ukranian TA laughable or something. I feel bad, she's a nice enough woman. You can tell she knows what she's talking about, I guess it's just her manner of speaking that throws it off a little, but it's hardly her fault, shit. eastern Europeans talk really fast and they do the same pausing "ehmmm" thing Persians do, it's irritating.
"Ukraine is weak!"
"I AM FROM UKRAINE"
"that's nice we're playing a game here, buddy"
I enjoy how everything can be related back to various episodes of seinfeld. (kramer & RISK on the subway ahah AHHHHH GOOD TIMES)
depressing how stupid shit like video games and tv give my life meaning occupy a lot of my time. way too much of it. I wish I was more active; I probably would be more focused on things more worthwhile (even if it's not apparent now, in the long run anyway). Like fucking school for instance. Or getting a new job after nearly two years of my life at the same bullshit. hahaha, I haven't even attempted to move up the 'corporate ladder', man.
Well I guess I'll go to bed, thank dog for daylight savings time. Oh wait, shit, there is still the matter of POUNDS OF HOMEWORK, ASSIGNMENTS AND READING. I am gay!