sigh..................
For the last few weeks Ive been feeling kind of... lonely I guess? Its not that I don't have anyone to hang out with because I'm always around people but I'm still missing something. I miss talking to someone on the phone before I go to sleep and all that crazy bullshit. I am actually looking for something more than what I had in my other "relationships". I'm kind of looking to fall in love I suppose since I never have before. But I'm not interested in any of the guys that I know now and even if I was they're all interested in my best friend. It seems like every guy we meet likes her right off the bat. I mean, I'm not hating but can I get a little love? Lol but seriously every new person we meet together likes her. I understand that its her personality that probably pulls them in and I'm not asking her to change her personality or not be herself, just like I'm not going to change the way I am just to make someone like me. Its just a little frustrating. I guess I'm still seeing Danny but its only because he's the only one around. Honestly if someone else came along that I really liked and they actually liked me, I'd drop him in a hot second. That's so sad but true. He's not the type of boyfriend I want anyway. He's 29/30, recently divorced, and he has kids. He is cool to hang out with though and that's why I do. I just wish there was someone else. More importantly someone I could bring around my family and not have to lie about their age/marital status/parenthood!