Everybody is so damn grown-upish
Today I went to this baptism thing, and as expected it was nice, BUT! Everybody, they're all more or less my age, were living such grown up lives and I felt like a childish retard. I mean, do I have a husband/wife? No. Am I living with someone or is in a very serious relationship? No. Have I just bought a house/apartment and seriously find discussions about interest interesting? No. Do I have kids or is expecting one? No. Have I finished my education and got my degree and is now looking for a job or have a damn fine job already? No.
On top of that they all now looked very neat and normal and proper like, well, i-take-my-life-seriously-adults.
It all made me feel miserable. Then I decided i'm too young to feel miserable about such silly things and can save that til i'm at least past thirty. Although, right now, it feels like i will never grow up.
So, when i got home i messed up my hair and cut it with a knife and razorblade, cut a wispy fringe and dyed it a bit darker. A very small, totally lame protest against all the perfections of the world. Now i feel so much better.
On top of that they all now looked very neat and normal and proper like, well, i-take-my-life-seriously-adults.
It all made me feel miserable. Then I decided i'm too young to feel miserable about such silly things and can save that til i'm at least past thirty. Although, right now, it feels like i will never grow up.
So, when i got home i messed up my hair and cut it with a knife and razorblade, cut a wispy fringe and dyed it a bit darker. A very small, totally lame protest against all the perfections of the world. Now i feel so much better.