19 days
19 more days until I'll be in Portland, Oregon.
19 days left until Leftover Crack at Hawthorne Theater!
19 days until I return to the origins of my birth.
19 days remain for me to be in Alaska.
7 working days are left until I fulfill my duty working at the farm.
7 mas working days of a semi-sweet job that is funding my trip to PDX.
.i cannot freaking wait to hit up Portland again!!!
i'm going to eat a bag of mushrooms.
i'm going to get plastered in the city streets.
i'm going to drink coffee and smoke weed outside PCH
i'm going to walk around Washington Park with a camera.
i'm going to climb trees.
i'm going to see my old-friends and make new ones!
i'm going to have fucking fun because I deserve to have some fun.
.
i'm not unhappy. i'm just not happy. i'm not sad but i'm not glad.
i'm not mad either. i'm just confused right now as to what the best move for my life would be right now.
I want to move back to PDX, and yet I really want to stay up here in Alaska.. what am I doing up here?
I don't know yet.. There has got to be a real reason other than my family and friends as to why I want to stay up here. What is staying here going to do to push my life further forward?
what do I have to gain?
what do I have to lose by staying?
what would I gain/lose by moving back to PDX?
AK Pros- Family, Friends, Alaskan WEED! beautiful summers, beautiful surroundings (no concrete jungles up here!) potential new bands to actually do something with..
Cons- the winter weather, darkness, possibly slip into depression again. the realization that i'm fucken stuck here and without a car, life really sucks ass up here.
sub-par job market for the valley. at times a lack of transportation.
PDX Pros- Drinking in the streets, skateboarding EVERYWHERE even at 3am downtown and not a single cop harrasses me, TRI-MET being the awsomest transportation i've ever encountered, I don't need a car to live there, movie theaters and Pioneer Mall are just a hop skip and a jump away, awsome open mics all over, awsome coffee shops everywhere, BACK-SPACE internet cafe, First/Last Thursday/Friday (FREE ALCOHOL!) ... my crew at Burnside Taco Bell.. . ALL THE KILLER FUCKING SHOWS!!!
Cons- Absolute lack of support from my friends/family in Alaska, depression from missing everyone so much, stupid people everywhere, scenekids everywhere, missing out on sweet shows because I have to work at night, finding myself walking the same damn streets, the same damn mall, the same damn Square every day, same same same same same; big-city livin mang.. life is so fast-paced feeling.
Yeah..
i'll figure it out.
19 days left until Leftover Crack at Hawthorne Theater!
19 days until I return to the origins of my birth.
19 days remain for me to be in Alaska.
7 working days are left until I fulfill my duty working at the farm.
7 mas working days of a semi-sweet job that is funding my trip to PDX.
.i cannot freaking wait to hit up Portland again!!!
i'm going to eat a bag of mushrooms.
i'm going to get plastered in the city streets.
i'm going to drink coffee and smoke weed outside PCH
i'm going to walk around Washington Park with a camera.
i'm going to climb trees.
i'm going to see my old-friends and make new ones!
i'm going to have fucking fun because I deserve to have some fun.
.
i'm not unhappy. i'm just not happy. i'm not sad but i'm not glad.
i'm not mad either. i'm just confused right now as to what the best move for my life would be right now.
I want to move back to PDX, and yet I really want to stay up here in Alaska.. what am I doing up here?
I don't know yet.. There has got to be a real reason other than my family and friends as to why I want to stay up here. What is staying here going to do to push my life further forward?
what do I have to gain?
what do I have to lose by staying?
what would I gain/lose by moving back to PDX?
AK Pros- Family, Friends, Alaskan WEED! beautiful summers, beautiful surroundings (no concrete jungles up here!) potential new bands to actually do something with..
Cons- the winter weather, darkness, possibly slip into depression again. the realization that i'm fucken stuck here and without a car, life really sucks ass up here.
sub-par job market for the valley. at times a lack of transportation.
PDX Pros- Drinking in the streets, skateboarding EVERYWHERE even at 3am downtown and not a single cop harrasses me, TRI-MET being the awsomest transportation i've ever encountered, I don't need a car to live there, movie theaters and Pioneer Mall are just a hop skip and a jump away, awsome open mics all over, awsome coffee shops everywhere, BACK-SPACE internet cafe, First/Last Thursday/Friday (FREE ALCOHOL!) ... my crew at Burnside Taco Bell.. . ALL THE KILLER FUCKING SHOWS!!!
Cons- Absolute lack of support from my friends/family in Alaska, depression from missing everyone so much, stupid people everywhere, scenekids everywhere, missing out on sweet shows because I have to work at night, finding myself walking the same damn streets, the same damn mall, the same damn Square every day, same same same same same; big-city livin mang.. life is so fast-paced feeling.
Yeah..
i'll figure it out.