Getting my feet wet
So I finally took the advice that ALL my friends were giving me. I actually went on some dates. Now I honestly don't date very much. I tend to be very shy and I don't like to feel like I am settling. Especially when it comes to love. I have only said I love you twice in my very short dating life. The first time, the boyfriend at the time laughed at me. Stating that he could never love me or anyone else for that matter, he just wasn't made that way. Then of coarse the most recent, he ended up dumping me through a text message. I forgive him and I am trying to move on. I tend to be the one in the relationship who gets dumped and you would think that I would be use to it. Most of the time the guys just never call back and we mutually just drift apart. It's kind of a chicken shit way of avoiding the real conversation that both of you don't want. I promised myself when I moved here from Memphis that I wouldn't be the one who sat around waiting for the other guy. That I would go out and do stuff that I wanted to do. Enjoy the city and all the amazing things that it offers. I am a true Virgo, this is, if you believe in that zodiac stuff. I hate feeling that I am wasting my time. So I have, for the most part, kept my promise. I tend to get sidetracked like everyone else. Which brings me back to the dating thing. I have been keeping up a nice schedule of dates with some nice guys. But in all honesty I don't see myself "dating" them. They are good guys but for me right now I am just not that into it. There is one guy who I could see us having a go at it only because we have known each other for a couple years now. We tend to enjoy the same things and we are closer to each others age. I use to date much older men but I found that most of them are not looking to settle down and start a family. That's one of the most important things that I am looking for in a husband/partner. I would share my dating experiences here but I usually let the guys I go on dates with look at my blog first before the meet me and if I were to be extremely honest in my writing then I most likely wouldn't get a date.