*sigh*
So.. This morning my dad informed me that my great uncle commited suicide. He taped up the windows of his car and stuck a hose from the exhaust into the car. This might sound mean, but I am pissed off about this. Sad of course, but mostly pissed off.
This uncle is my grandpa's brother. His son died from cancer last summer, and there sister died from cancer in the winter. My grandpa (his brother) is about to die from cancer. And this healthy man desides to take his own life. His brother is sitting at home waiting to die but wanting to live and he doesnt visit him, doesnt call him, and desides to kill himself. It just makes me so ugh i dont even know.
He had a choice to live or not, and my grandpa is at home doing worse and worse everyday and has no choice but to die, soon.
My grandpa sounds a bit on the po'd side about all of this too. So is there other brother, George. He was visiting my gpa yesturday and was saying that Gordy is a sinner and all this stuff.
I so dont understand it.
On another unhappy note.. My grandpa is doing ALOT worse. He can barely talk, can only walk with assistance, cant eat, can hardly drink, needs oxygen fulltime, his skin color is VERY off, his hearing is almost totally gone. He doesnt have much time left. And its very sad. I cant stand seeing him this way. He was always one of the strongest men I knew and was so healthy and brave and fearless. And now hes like a small baby. Needs help eating, getting into bed, going to the washroom, needs help with everything!
On a happier note, Malory says 'where are you?' now. Its super cute. SHe was looking for me yesturday and she was going "MomMom, where are you?". It was adorable.
This uncle is my grandpa's brother. His son died from cancer last summer, and there sister died from cancer in the winter. My grandpa (his brother) is about to die from cancer. And this healthy man desides to take his own life. His brother is sitting at home waiting to die but wanting to live and he doesnt visit him, doesnt call him, and desides to kill himself. It just makes me so ugh i dont even know.
He had a choice to live or not, and my grandpa is at home doing worse and worse everyday and has no choice but to die, soon.
My grandpa sounds a bit on the po'd side about all of this too. So is there other brother, George. He was visiting my gpa yesturday and was saying that Gordy is a sinner and all this stuff.
I so dont understand it.
On another unhappy note.. My grandpa is doing ALOT worse. He can barely talk, can only walk with assistance, cant eat, can hardly drink, needs oxygen fulltime, his skin color is VERY off, his hearing is almost totally gone. He doesnt have much time left. And its very sad. I cant stand seeing him this way. He was always one of the strongest men I knew and was so healthy and brave and fearless. And now hes like a small baby. Needs help eating, getting into bed, going to the washroom, needs help with everything!
On a happier note, Malory says 'where are you?' now. Its super cute. SHe was looking for me yesturday and she was going "MomMom, where are you?". It was adorable.