arrrg...meh
I really try to post more often, but I'm not always sure about what exactly I should write about, then time always slips away from me and I forget.
I don't want to sulk or use this for some sort of depressive relief, but I'm going to open up for a moment. I really wish I could find a guy that wanted something real. Time after time, I try to get into relationships that just end up being part of the typical college dating game. I'm not looking to get married and what not (duh, I'm only 19), I just want someone who I know will be there for me and want to share time together and do other cute couple-y-ish things that couples do ::closes eyes dreams:: (late night walks around a lake, cuddling in the cold, and looking forward to sleep just so the next day will come sooner). Why can't I find that person!?! There has to be someone out there that would like the same thing. Right? Who wouldn't want that?
Anyway, I went out with Erin, Clint and Clint's friend Emillio last night. I have to say, its the most fun I've had in a while. Erin is such a wonderful person and friend. She makes the darkest of days so much brighter :-D It was nice to actually see Clint in real-people cloths and not his usual Subway-Eat-Fresh atire. His friend was pretty cool as well. He's from Spain (sexy forgein accent, beautiful skin...ok fine, I'll stop now...). Anyway, Clint was definatly rockin the hookah, lol. Hopefully we'll hang out more often now ::crosses fingers::
I think that's all now.
...except for the fact that I'm really freaking bored and I can't wait for Tuesday -^_^-
And I'm really trying to get back into the whole church thing. Its hard, but I'm trying really hard. It helps havng Erin to hold me accountable (thanks sweetie) and I was really encouraged by a guy from Big 8 yesterday. Kinda funny how it happened, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that I'm getting to be a better person mentally and spiritually and that excites me. : )
Tata for now dear Facebook/Myspace stalkers. I'm going to make a big cup of hot chocolate and sip it on the back patio in my sweats and curled in a blanket with my awesome beanie -^_^-
I don't want to sulk or use this for some sort of depressive relief, but I'm going to open up for a moment. I really wish I could find a guy that wanted something real. Time after time, I try to get into relationships that just end up being part of the typical college dating game. I'm not looking to get married and what not (duh, I'm only 19), I just want someone who I know will be there for me and want to share time together and do other cute couple-y-ish things that couples do ::closes eyes dreams:: (late night walks around a lake, cuddling in the cold, and looking forward to sleep just so the next day will come sooner). Why can't I find that person!?! There has to be someone out there that would like the same thing. Right? Who wouldn't want that?
Anyway, I went out with Erin, Clint and Clint's friend Emillio last night. I have to say, its the most fun I've had in a while. Erin is such a wonderful person and friend. She makes the darkest of days so much brighter :-D It was nice to actually see Clint in real-people cloths and not his usual Subway-Eat-Fresh atire. His friend was pretty cool as well. He's from Spain (sexy forgein accent, beautiful skin...ok fine, I'll stop now...). Anyway, Clint was definatly rockin the hookah, lol. Hopefully we'll hang out more often now ::crosses fingers::
I think that's all now.
...except for the fact that I'm really freaking bored and I can't wait for Tuesday -^_^-
And I'm really trying to get back into the whole church thing. Its hard, but I'm trying really hard. It helps havng Erin to hold me accountable (thanks sweetie) and I was really encouraged by a guy from Big 8 yesterday. Kinda funny how it happened, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that I'm getting to be a better person mentally and spiritually and that excites me. : )
Tata for now dear Facebook/Myspace stalkers. I'm going to make a big cup of hot chocolate and sip it on the back patio in my sweats and curled in a blanket with my awesome beanie -^_^-