[addicted]
wOw...its been a while...longer than last time...
over the past month or so, I haven't really found the time to write.
Chiefs started back up August 20. That was exciting. I was so pumped for this season but as soon as the block list came out, my excitment kinda deflated. Its not that I mind being an altenator, it just really sucks...I'm not marching anything in the Miami game, yet I still have to go just to sit in the stands...and I wouldn't mind that AT ALL except for the fact that I haven't seen Billy in over a month and he actually gets 4 days this weekend and I can only spend one day with him before we leave.
I feel like I'm not benifiting Chiefs AT ALL (which I'm probably not...I'm only one in 500) and its actually hurting my relationship. I would be able to go see Billy every other weekend or even more, but I always have practice, games, and travel. It is really putting alot of pressure on me. I miss Billy like nobody can imagine and I hate just going to practice to be a shadow of someone else's spot that I most likey won't even get to march. Grr...
Anyway...
If you haven't noticed I'm seriously going thourgh Billy withdraw...almost to the point of ending everything. I really hate to say that because he means so much to me. But nothing makes sense to me anymore.
Next suject...
School started and I'm taking 17 hours. It was 21, but then I realized that would be academic suicide in Chiefs season so I dropped two. I'm really digging my major now. I think I've found something I'll actually stick with :-) and that makes me (and my parent's check book) very happy. My professors are amazingly awesome and that excites me. HORRAY!
That is all for now.
over the past month or so, I haven't really found the time to write.
Chiefs started back up August 20. That was exciting. I was so pumped for this season but as soon as the block list came out, my excitment kinda deflated. Its not that I mind being an altenator, it just really sucks...I'm not marching anything in the Miami game, yet I still have to go just to sit in the stands...and I wouldn't mind that AT ALL except for the fact that I haven't seen Billy in over a month and he actually gets 4 days this weekend and I can only spend one day with him before we leave.
I feel like I'm not benifiting Chiefs AT ALL (which I'm probably not...I'm only one in 500) and its actually hurting my relationship. I would be able to go see Billy every other weekend or even more, but I always have practice, games, and travel. It is really putting alot of pressure on me. I miss Billy like nobody can imagine and I hate just going to practice to be a shadow of someone else's spot that I most likey won't even get to march. Grr...
Anyway...
If you haven't noticed I'm seriously going thourgh Billy withdraw...almost to the point of ending everything. I really hate to say that because he means so much to me. But nothing makes sense to me anymore.
Next suject...
School started and I'm taking 17 hours. It was 21, but then I realized that would be academic suicide in Chiefs season so I dropped two. I'm really digging my major now. I think I've found something I'll actually stick with :-) and that makes me (and my parent's check book) very happy. My professors are amazingly awesome and that excites me. HORRAY!
That is all for now.