the real shit
really thinks I'm stalking her daughter because I've commented on how fucked up the things she does are....... hmmm. To be honest with everyone I dont think about them..... at least I do everything in my power not the think about them. Every now and then I'll hear Jayme and Little lilly come home..... I'll wonder to myself if that little girl is doing alright..... wish well for her and move my attention back onto my life. I dont understand how I am doing much of anything wrong as far as keeping my distance from them..... At least the end of the summer will be here soon and Eli and I will be gone..... I wont have to hear or see them come home and then out of sight out of mind.... I'll probably always say a little prayer for her each sunday but other then that I just hope she is alright the same way I hope lindsey is happy at school and lucy is happy and so on.
The one thing that blew my mind though, was that she really thought that after the shitty way Jared dismissed me and the idea that he thought he could remove me from Jayme's doorway, that I would still want him...... sorry but I am so happy with eli and would rather die then put myself through a torture like Jared. God, eww, plus now that I know he has jumped on the Jayme band wagon I know I dont want to be touching that! So he is a pussy of a man and he along with who know how many other dudes have been with jayme.... who knows what I would catch. hope Jared is smart before she plays "keep a nigger baby" again..... who knows Lilly probably wants a brother or sister.
oh well to be honest within the next three years or so I plan to be married ( I know a concept most people dont seem to understand) but I'm going to get married and THEN have a kid.... I'm going to be responsible about it and honest about it..... which in the end will give me a great family and a loving home...... I pray other will one day be so lucky
The one thing that blew my mind though, was that she really thought that after the shitty way Jared dismissed me and the idea that he thought he could remove me from Jayme's doorway, that I would still want him...... sorry but I am so happy with eli and would rather die then put myself through a torture like Jared. God, eww, plus now that I know he has jumped on the Jayme band wagon I know I dont want to be touching that! So he is a pussy of a man and he along with who know how many other dudes have been with jayme.... who knows what I would catch. hope Jared is smart before she plays "keep a nigger baby" again..... who knows Lilly probably wants a brother or sister.
oh well to be honest within the next three years or so I plan to be married ( I know a concept most people dont seem to understand) but I'm going to get married and THEN have a kid.... I'm going to be responsible about it and honest about it..... which in the end will give me a great family and a loving home...... I pray other will one day be so lucky