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So cullen and i watched this great movie last night about erasing memories of a person. It made me think alot I would never erase anyone from my memories..... not even charlie. The shit that happend with charlie taught me how to never let it happen again. There are so many good times in mine and cullen's past....... I'd never want to forget those..... ever. even the bad times i want to remember. only going through the bad will we ever grow to be something good.
Cullen and I talked lastnight as well. I told him that i knew about all the shit he sent riise and not just the conversation i saw. I hated talking to him about this. I always just hope that the conversation will never come up and we'll just grow into friends but last night i knew i had to talk to him about. fool me once shame on him fool me twice shame on me...... and the third time? where does the shame go then? He tells me he is sorry and i know more then anything that he is, but how i am suppost to love him knowing that from what he sent to her our relationship was nothing but a joke. and he tells me its not a joke and that it never was, and that he only said that shit because he wanted to be around chloe. I dont even have a kid and i know the best way to do that is to go to the courts. oh well whats done is done right? the things said and the times had mean what the mean. they had their run and now its over.....right?
I never want to hurt him agian and i know that last night hurt him alot. I hate seeing that man cry it breaks my heart. me loving him was never in question....... i just dont think i'll ever be able to be in love with him. not the same way i did before. live each day one step at a time and you'll be lovingly surprised...... isn't that what they say?
Cullen and I talked lastnight as well. I told him that i knew about all the shit he sent riise and not just the conversation i saw. I hated talking to him about this. I always just hope that the conversation will never come up and we'll just grow into friends but last night i knew i had to talk to him about. fool me once shame on him fool me twice shame on me...... and the third time? where does the shame go then? He tells me he is sorry and i know more then anything that he is, but how i am suppost to love him knowing that from what he sent to her our relationship was nothing but a joke. and he tells me its not a joke and that it never was, and that he only said that shit because he wanted to be around chloe. I dont even have a kid and i know the best way to do that is to go to the courts. oh well whats done is done right? the things said and the times had mean what the mean. they had their run and now its over.....right?
I never want to hurt him agian and i know that last night hurt him alot. I hate seeing that man cry it breaks my heart. me loving him was never in question....... i just dont think i'll ever be able to be in love with him. not the same way i did before. live each day one step at a time and you'll be lovingly surprised...... isn't that what they say?