The long weekend
At church today, someone asked me what I was doing for the weekend. I said, "Oh, I'm working tomorrow." They replied, "Oh, that always seems to happen where your weekend gets broken up." Then I realized they thought I got Monday off, so I clarified. lol. But I did get a long weekend! 1.5 days off from Friday at noon until Sunday morning.
I feel like I'm coming to from being knocked unconscious. Then I was reflecting on this last year and thinking that I've spent a lot of it in daze. I was on nights from mid Dec. to mid Jan. Took me a week to equilibrate back to days. Then I was on a busy month in Feb. Then during my light month I was still fairly busy preparing for boards. Then began the chaotic months of April through June that just didn't seem to have days off to recuperate. And at a point of very low reserves in July I was metaphorically run over by a semi-truck. I've been lapsing in and out of consciousness since then. I was able to go home for my regularly scheduled vacation in mid August, which was very necessary. Then last weekend I was on home call for OB and wasn't called in during the afternoon after rounds so was able to hang out with a friend. We spent the afternoon just catching up and reflecting. This friend had also had a trying few months and it was refreshing to see that she had come out on the other side and was still breathing.
I realized sometime over the last two months that I had stopped praying a prayer that I used to pray during every mass. I now cannot even recall when I had stopped but it was likely sometime in medical school. I'll leave you with the prayer:
Dear Jesus, help me to spread Your fragrance everywhere I go.
Flood my soul with Your spirit and life.
Penetrate and possess my whole being so utterly,
That my life may only be a radiance of Yours.
Shine through me, and be so in me
That every soul I come in contact with
May feel Your presence in my soul.
Let them look up and see no longer me, but only You, Jesus!
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I wanna live like there's no tomorrow
Love like I'm on borrowed time
It's good to be alive
I won’t take it for granted
I won’t waste another second
All I want is to give you
A life well lived, to say “thank you”
I feel like I'm coming to from being knocked unconscious. Then I was reflecting on this last year and thinking that I've spent a lot of it in daze. I was on nights from mid Dec. to mid Jan. Took me a week to equilibrate back to days. Then I was on a busy month in Feb. Then during my light month I was still fairly busy preparing for boards. Then began the chaotic months of April through June that just didn't seem to have days off to recuperate. And at a point of very low reserves in July I was metaphorically run over by a semi-truck. I've been lapsing in and out of consciousness since then. I was able to go home for my regularly scheduled vacation in mid August, which was very necessary. Then last weekend I was on home call for OB and wasn't called in during the afternoon after rounds so was able to hang out with a friend. We spent the afternoon just catching up and reflecting. This friend had also had a trying few months and it was refreshing to see that she had come out on the other side and was still breathing.
I realized sometime over the last two months that I had stopped praying a prayer that I used to pray during every mass. I now cannot even recall when I had stopped but it was likely sometime in medical school. I'll leave you with the prayer:
Dear Jesus, help me to spread Your fragrance everywhere I go.
Flood my soul with Your spirit and life.
Penetrate and possess my whole being so utterly,
That my life may only be a radiance of Yours.
Shine through me, and be so in me
That every soul I come in contact with
May feel Your presence in my soul.
Let them look up and see no longer me, but only You, Jesus!
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I wanna live like there's no tomorrow
Love like I'm on borrowed time
It's good to be alive
I won’t take it for granted
I won’t waste another second
All I want is to give you
A life well lived, to say “thank you”