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Oct 19, 2007 10:33

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paledragonwings October 20 2007, 10:11:12 UTC
Wow.
You looked/look absolutely fantastic.
No wonder where you get your muscle. I am not surprised at all that you were a dancer. (In high school? I'm assuming.)

At +17, I think you looked GREAT.
If I had met you randomly, I might have hit on you... well, I would have considered it. But I wouldn't have said anything because I'd be staring at your legs daydreaming... about having perfect legs like yours... and about dating a hot girl like you. But... *ahem* I'm weird. *blush*

If I were to meet you randomly these days, I'd think you were eating disordered. Even if you didn't say it. Because I always think that the super-skinny girls are eating disordered. Especially the pretty ones. It just doesn't seem fair that a girl gets a gorgeous face AND body.

Your +35 reminds me of how I look in MY +35. Someone told me, I believe, that I looked like an "awkward adolescent". You look younger... Was this pre-dance or post-dance? I gained weight after high-school (sleeping too much, depression, hypothyroid, PTSD, the works), but that seemed to kick in this stronger drive to be thin. I'm UNDER the lowest weight I was at this height in high school... back when people were calling me skinny all the time.

And I still feel fat. It's weird. It's like, I still think I weigh 140 lbs. GROSS! I totally feel that large still. I see photos of myself from recently, and I think, "Wow, she looks good. Wait... that's... that's ME? WTF?" But the second I see that it's me, I'm nitpicking at all the flaws. Like I'm just programmed to hate myself.

Don't know why I'm going on and on....

Guess I just wanted to say that it looks you went through a very short stage of hitting your "peak weight" (that's what I call it) before your weight dropped again. And I think you look fine, but it's obvious that you also felt uncomfortable. When I weighed so much more, I was ALWAYS thinking to myself, "Hold my head like so to prevent double-chin, smile like so to prevent ripple in cheek, don't TILT my head, don't stick out butt, extend leg DON'T bend it, stand tall and straight, suck in..." etc. at that time, so these thoughts made for some funny-looking, jilted-stance effect. Like I'm caught mid-shift of position. These days, I don't do that as much. It's second nature. Plus, I have less to worry about.

But I still worry about it. Guess we all do.

You look SO fantastic at +17 though. SO FANTASTIC. Your legs are gorgeous. I think you look gorgeous now (like a model, which makes sense), but your legs in the dancing photos are to die for. You look so athletic, toned, and very lean. One of those pretty perfect dance girls we all envied in high school... *sighs wistfully*

Also, I LOVE YOUR FASHION. You rock high-waist shorts.

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