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i have class in less than a half an hour.
i got to school so early this morning to register which ended up truly being a waste of time. consequently, i kept on passing out in history of england. kim and i went to visit mary, the lady that works in the bookstore. she is so beautiful and sweet. i was so stressed out and she just hugged me and i began to tear up. i think i'm going to go home and weep later. she is so touching and heartwarming.
i suppose i have to tell my mom about my tattoo now. i've already told my dad and he respects my decision. however, i don't think the same can be said for my mom or the rest of my family. i know they are going to be disappointed in me, but i really wanted this. and i really want more tattoos and plan on getting them. it just hurts me deeply to have people disappointed in me. but this is the story of my life. i don't know how i'm going to tell her, but i have to tell her soon because hiding it is unnecessary stress. it makes me sad and has me on the edge constantly. it makes me feel sickly.
i had the worse cramps ever so carlos let me sleep in his bed while he played videogames. and it was really nice. when i woke up, i laid there and watched him play for a few minutes and it was just warm.
i really want to spoon.
Dear Mom,
I’ve been struggling to find the words and the right time and way to say them. I know you are going to be very disappointed in me and that fact alone hurts me very deeply. I am so sorry that it disappoints you, angers, or upsets you, but I got a tattoo. If it means anything, this tattoo has deep meaning and I’d been planning it since I found out Grandma was sick. You have to understand that like you and dad, Grandma is my lifeline. She always has been and always will be. It breaks my so much to see her sick because you know how much I love her. And I got this tattoo for her, because I love her.
I am so sorry for not telling you about it first. I am also very sorry for waiting to tell you. I am sorry for all that you are feeling right now about me. And I hope that you will not be too angry at me. I do not regret the decision I have made, but I regret the disappointment and pain that may follow as a result. I realize that just like the ink, your feelings about this are permanent, but so is my love for Grandma and it is something I want to carry with me for the rest of my life.
Please allow me to tell Grandma about this tattoo myself. I am beside myself at what her reaction will be, but I need to tell her. The thought of disappointing you all kills me and I am truly, truly sorry for disappointing you.
I love you, very much, nonetheless despite of what your feelings and reaction are.
Love,
Natalie
i got to school so early this morning to register which ended up truly being a waste of time. consequently, i kept on passing out in history of england. kim and i went to visit mary, the lady that works in the bookstore. she is so beautiful and sweet. i was so stressed out and she just hugged me and i began to tear up. i think i'm going to go home and weep later. she is so touching and heartwarming.
i suppose i have to tell my mom about my tattoo now. i've already told my dad and he respects my decision. however, i don't think the same can be said for my mom or the rest of my family. i know they are going to be disappointed in me, but i really wanted this. and i really want more tattoos and plan on getting them. it just hurts me deeply to have people disappointed in me. but this is the story of my life. i don't know how i'm going to tell her, but i have to tell her soon because hiding it is unnecessary stress. it makes me sad and has me on the edge constantly. it makes me feel sickly.
i had the worse cramps ever so carlos let me sleep in his bed while he played videogames. and it was really nice. when i woke up, i laid there and watched him play for a few minutes and it was just warm.
i really want to spoon.
Dear Mom,
I’ve been struggling to find the words and the right time and way to say them. I know you are going to be very disappointed in me and that fact alone hurts me very deeply. I am so sorry that it disappoints you, angers, or upsets you, but I got a tattoo. If it means anything, this tattoo has deep meaning and I’d been planning it since I found out Grandma was sick. You have to understand that like you and dad, Grandma is my lifeline. She always has been and always will be. It breaks my so much to see her sick because you know how much I love her. And I got this tattoo for her, because I love her.
I am so sorry for not telling you about it first. I am also very sorry for waiting to tell you. I am sorry for all that you are feeling right now about me. And I hope that you will not be too angry at me. I do not regret the decision I have made, but I regret the disappointment and pain that may follow as a result. I realize that just like the ink, your feelings about this are permanent, but so is my love for Grandma and it is something I want to carry with me for the rest of my life.
Please allow me to tell Grandma about this tattoo myself. I am beside myself at what her reaction will be, but I need to tell her. The thought of disappointing you all kills me and I am truly, truly sorry for disappointing you.
I love you, very much, nonetheless despite of what your feelings and reaction are.
Love,
Natalie