Nov 07, 2003 00:37
i remember when i was absolutely obsessed with sunny day real estate a few years ago. they made my heart ache. i always wanted my heart broken then it seemed. maybe i still do. there's just no one worthy of breaking it as of late. but i also wanted to like slow dance with a boy in my bedroom to sdre. and i wanted to cry on his shoulder. i still do.
you'll always have your time to shine even in the winter of your darkest hour.
i know i really don't make sense. but sometimes feeling sad is the only way to feel alive. i'm not at all sad right now. and i don't think i should be because for about three weeks recently, i cried everyday.
oh and big ups to mom for handing over the reigns and letting me live and make my own decisions.
don't cry, don't cry. i'm going back on my word. and driving the nails in deeper.
i feel like i'm failing j. christ.