inspired to live...[with you]
before you slip into unconsciousness
i'd like to have another kiss
another flashing chance at bliss
another kiss...another kiss
the days are bright and filled with pain
enclose me in your gentle rain
the time you ran was too insane
we'll meet again...we'll meet again
oh tell me where your freedom lies
the streets are fields that never die
deliver me from reasons why
you'd rather cry, i'd rather fly...
i still feel empty. i'm not half the person i used to be. all this effort to try and make myself happy still fails day by day, and kills tons of emotion and creativity in the way. all i do is day dream [...and about random things]. and i think about ways that i can avoid disappointing and being a disappointment to everyone i know. i just want to be great. what am i rambling on about? i want to know that i was great...that i achieved things that i want to, and saw things i wanted to, and fell in love [js], and had friends who love me like i love them. life is such an odd concept. all we are doing is dying a little everyday. and we call that process living?...
do we really want to be content? because if you are content, then what is the motivation for living? once you are content, will you be able to sit back and enjoy it? will you really? or will you keep trying to attain some higher sense of satisfaction; some more indulging sense of fulfillment?
all i have been doing lately is going through my cd's and listening to all of them. fuck...all of these songs mean so much to me. the things these people say and the chords they play. the notes they hit and the beats they produce. if i could ever touch one person's life half as much as this music has touched mine, then i think i will have had a successful life. but does success bring happiness?...wow...being lost is an endearing attribute...
besides all that, it's friday night, and i'm alone in my room. and as anyone would be, i'm bored, so here...
my father thinks i am: an internet nazi, an industrialist, a diplomat, wasting my time with music
my mother thinks i am: not interested in sex [she's mistaken, haha], weird, cute, messy
my sibling thinks i am: controlling, stupid [aren't all siblings the same], "fun to wrestle with"
my grandma thinks i am: gothic, the best ever haha! [for the record, i'm not...]
my grandpa thinks i am: smart
my boyfriend/girlfriend thinks i am: if i had one, i'd answer ='(
my best friends thinks I am: hmm...one thinks i'm annoying but still loves me [you know who you are], the other thinks i'm talented and sweet- with my "days", haha. sweet.
+your three best qualities= mmm....passionate, honest. loving? [i hope]
+three worst qualities= too sensitive, i think too much, s l o w
+three things you are often complimented for= making people feel better, being a good friend, and uh...being fun to talk to =P
+a compliment you got that made you blush= "i never knew what i missing until you..." well, just about any compliment makes me "blush". i like when people say im "amazing" [in all categories] =)
+you get embarrassed when= i get complimented. or have to talk about sex.
+makes you happy= my great friends, good music, late fone calls [mmm...]
+upsets you= myself, my thoughts, confusion...
yes or no...
+you keep a diary = i write. i have friends who i can spill my heart out to. and i have a livejournal?
+you like to cook = ehh...simple food?
+you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = nope
+you fold your underwear = nahh
+you talk in your sleep = how would i know? but i'm sure i do sometimes
+you bite your fingernails = nahhh
+you believe in love = if i didn't, i wouldn't be here
last...
x. movie you rented = batman
x. movie you bought = hmm....i haven't gotten a new movie in a while
x. song you listened to = ender
x. song you've downloaded = "you aint gotta say too much" haha
x. CD you listened to = rilo kiley
x. person you've called = mom
x. person that's called you = jen =)
x. TV show you've watched = scratch and burn =D
x. person you were thinking of = take 2 guesses...nah, just 1...
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = not yet
x. you believe in online dating = nahh
x. others find you attractive = only blind ones who live 400 miles away, or the "A/S/L" kids online. haha...nahhh, i unno.
x. you want more piercings = eye brow...maybe tongue
x. you want more tattoos = nah
x. you drink = not regularly
x. you do drugs = nope.
x. you like cleaning = hate it
x. you like roller coasters = i do
x. you write in cursive or print = kindergarten printing
x. you carry a donor card = nope
have you...
x. ever cried over a boy/girl = many times
x. ever lied to someone = who hasn't?
x. ever been in a fist fight = i would take a punch to prove a point and preserve my integrity. i don't fight.
x. ever been arrested = almost
what...
x. shampoo do you use = herbal essences...it really does work
x. perfume do you use = 212
x. shoes do you wear = converse
x. are you scared of = being alone
number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken? the limit
x. of hearts I have broken? i'd like to think 0, but i dont know. probably 2...but i fixed one of them
x. of people I've slept with? what does it mean by that?
x. of people I consider my enemies? i dont waste my time
x. of CDs' that I own? about 400
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? i dont know
x. of things in my past that I regret? i have no regrets. whatever happened, happened. i cannot change it. and everything has played a part in making me who i am
i'd like to have another kiss
another flashing chance at bliss
another kiss...another kiss
the days are bright and filled with pain
enclose me in your gentle rain
the time you ran was too insane
we'll meet again...we'll meet again
oh tell me where your freedom lies
the streets are fields that never die
deliver me from reasons why
you'd rather cry, i'd rather fly...
i still feel empty. i'm not half the person i used to be. all this effort to try and make myself happy still fails day by day, and kills tons of emotion and creativity in the way. all i do is day dream [...and about random things]. and i think about ways that i can avoid disappointing and being a disappointment to everyone i know. i just want to be great. what am i rambling on about? i want to know that i was great...that i achieved things that i want to, and saw things i wanted to, and fell in love [js], and had friends who love me like i love them. life is such an odd concept. all we are doing is dying a little everyday. and we call that process living?...
do we really want to be content? because if you are content, then what is the motivation for living? once you are content, will you be able to sit back and enjoy it? will you really? or will you keep trying to attain some higher sense of satisfaction; some more indulging sense of fulfillment?
all i have been doing lately is going through my cd's and listening to all of them. fuck...all of these songs mean so much to me. the things these people say and the chords they play. the notes they hit and the beats they produce. if i could ever touch one person's life half as much as this music has touched mine, then i think i will have had a successful life. but does success bring happiness?...wow...being lost is an endearing attribute...
besides all that, it's friday night, and i'm alone in my room. and as anyone would be, i'm bored, so here...
my father thinks i am: an internet nazi, an industrialist, a diplomat, wasting my time with music
my mother thinks i am: not interested in sex [she's mistaken, haha], weird, cute, messy
my sibling thinks i am: controlling, stupid [aren't all siblings the same], "fun to wrestle with"
my grandma thinks i am: gothic, the best ever haha! [for the record, i'm not...]
my grandpa thinks i am: smart
my boyfriend/girlfriend thinks i am: if i had one, i'd answer ='(
my best friends thinks I am: hmm...one thinks i'm annoying but still loves me [you know who you are], the other thinks i'm talented and sweet- with my "days", haha. sweet.
+your three best qualities= mmm....passionate, honest. loving? [i hope]
+three worst qualities= too sensitive, i think too much, s l o w
+three things you are often complimented for= making people feel better, being a good friend, and uh...being fun to talk to =P
+a compliment you got that made you blush= "i never knew what i missing until you..." well, just about any compliment makes me "blush". i like when people say im "amazing" [in all categories] =)
+you get embarrassed when= i get complimented. or have to talk about sex.
+makes you happy= my great friends, good music, late fone calls [mmm...]
+upsets you= myself, my thoughts, confusion...
yes or no...
+you keep a diary = i write. i have friends who i can spill my heart out to. and i have a livejournal?
+you like to cook = ehh...simple food?
+you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = nope
+you fold your underwear = nahh
+you talk in your sleep = how would i know? but i'm sure i do sometimes
+you bite your fingernails = nahhh
+you believe in love = if i didn't, i wouldn't be here
last...
x. movie you rented = batman
x. movie you bought = hmm....i haven't gotten a new movie in a while
x. song you listened to = ender
x. song you've downloaded = "you aint gotta say too much" haha
x. CD you listened to = rilo kiley
x. person you've called = mom
x. person that's called you = jen =)
x. TV show you've watched = scratch and burn =D
x. person you were thinking of = take 2 guesses...nah, just 1...
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = not yet
x. you believe in online dating = nahh
x. others find you attractive = only blind ones who live 400 miles away, or the "A/S/L" kids online. haha...nahhh, i unno.
x. you want more piercings = eye brow...maybe tongue
x. you want more tattoos = nah
x. you drink = not regularly
x. you do drugs = nope.
x. you like cleaning = hate it
x. you like roller coasters = i do
x. you write in cursive or print = kindergarten printing
x. you carry a donor card = nope
have you...
x. ever cried over a boy/girl = many times
x. ever lied to someone = who hasn't?
x. ever been in a fist fight = i would take a punch to prove a point and preserve my integrity. i don't fight.
x. ever been arrested = almost
what...
x. shampoo do you use = herbal essences...it really does work
x. perfume do you use = 212
x. shoes do you wear = converse
x. are you scared of = being alone
number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken? the limit
x. of hearts I have broken? i'd like to think 0, but i dont know. probably 2...but i fixed one of them
x. of people I've slept with? what does it mean by that?
x. of people I consider my enemies? i dont waste my time
x. of CDs' that I own? about 400
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? i dont know
x. of things in my past that I regret? i have no regrets. whatever happened, happened. i cannot change it. and everything has played a part in making me who i am