what to do
My grandpas not doing well. He's had two heart attacks in the past but this summer he had another and was hospitalized for it. When my brother and I were in Switzerland this summer we went to visit him twice at the clinic he was staying at and he seemed to be doing great. He constantly talked about how he would be doing so much better than all the others when it came to walks in the woods and riding of the stationary bike. He had high hopes...two days ago my mom got a phone call from my aunt saying my grandpa was yet again hospitalized for heart problems. Up until today the doctors yet again told my grandpa that he was going to be fine and that his problem would be curable by medication..what bullshit that was. Today my aunt called my mom crying...my grandpa was sent to ICU with his pulse at 130..waaay too high. My poor aunt..she's been so strong caring for my grandma while my grandpa has been away. My grandma is a wonderful person but all her life she's depended on my grandpa for everything. Up until the summer she had no idea how to get money out of an ATM or anything, she doesn't drive either. She's depended on my grandpa for everything..now that he hasn't been around she of course is miserable..stressed..not her happy self really. My aunt has been the rock for her..and she's even cracked now with all the stress. She asked my mom today if she'd fly over to Switzerland..my mom has wanted to do that for awhile..even in the summer when we first found out about my grandpa..but she hasn't gone..she wants to go now..I think she's going..She called the swiss consulat because she had to renew her passport and they have it. She asked me to go along with her...I want to go, but then again I don't. I want to see my grandpa..I want to be there for him, my grandma, my aunt and especially my mom..she's so strong right now..she always is with these sort of situations..doesn't show much emotion, don't know if thats really so good. If we go..we'd be leaving mabye friday. Kind of sucks because this is the weekend of the Swiss Ski Club. We go up every year around this time and I don't want to miss it, because its always so much fun. Sounds very immature of me..what the hell am I thinking..I should go if my mom wants me and if my dad allows it, I should go..Its not only the weekend I'd miss, I'd always be missing all oppurtunities for me to work at Lonestar. All my training will go down the drain and I'd have to wait till summer again..Sherry the manager will probablly be pissed...I hate this..and every time the phone rings I get scared..I'm afraid that one call is going to be telling me my grandpa has passed away and I don't think I could deal with that...I don't know what to do..i really don't know..
you'll be in my prayers grandpa...
