realization
I've had two realiztaions today and neither of them fun or good....lets see:
#1: I might have to greatly reconsider my career path- Two O.Chem tests down and I've freaking haven't made much progress. I thought I knew the material and of course I fucking don't do as well as I'd hoped to do. So flat out, I basically have to get an A on the next two tests, one of those tests being the final. I hate how one class, which I find has no relavance to what I want to do, is going to bring my hopes down. I also hate giving up and I'm very reluctant to drop the class, I'm going to have to do some serious thinking :(
#2: My roomate is most likely not coming back this year-While I was talking with my mom on the phone about the test we got to talking about Erin and how's shes doing. We talked about it, odds seems slim to none that she'll be coming back and that sucks soooo much. I hate how bad things happen to such great people. Her parents and family don't deserve and she sure as hell doesn't either. No one should ever have to go through cancer or any sort of illness. Its ripping me up inside, I've even had bad dreams about the whole situation, not any I feel like sharing. I see all my friends with room mates and I just miss having Erin around :(
What a shitty begining to this week. On the plus side of all this I don't have lab for two weeks straight, and I get to go home for Thanksgiving where I'll be able to see all my wonderful friends in 7 days! I also haven't posted any lyrics of mine on this thing in a looong time..so I'm going to now:
Fallen
I have too much time alone to think
And the pictures in my head just make me sick
Cuz nothing seems to want to go my way
I'm just waiting for the better days
Nothings good and nothing's right
Just waiting for the dark of night
Give my mind a chance to rest
Give it a break from all the mess
And I'm...
Waiting for someone
To help me when I'm done
Cuz I can barely breathe
I've fallen on my knees
Pull myself out of this hole
Before I get too small
I knwo I must be strong
But I feel like I can't go on
I've fallen in way to deep
And the way back up is looking really steep
Waiting for the storm clouds to pull away
So I can the bright sun one more day
And I know life must go on
But right now I feel I'm the only one
And I'm...
Waiting for someone
To help me when I'm done
Cuz I can barely breathe
I've fallen on my knees
Pull myself out of this hole
Before I get too small (x2)
I have to much time alone to think
And the pictures in my head just make me sick
Cuz nothing seems to want to go my way
I'm just waiting for the better days
#1: I might have to greatly reconsider my career path- Two O.Chem tests down and I've freaking haven't made much progress. I thought I knew the material and of course I fucking don't do as well as I'd hoped to do. So flat out, I basically have to get an A on the next two tests, one of those tests being the final. I hate how one class, which I find has no relavance to what I want to do, is going to bring my hopes down. I also hate giving up and I'm very reluctant to drop the class, I'm going to have to do some serious thinking :(
#2: My roomate is most likely not coming back this year-While I was talking with my mom on the phone about the test we got to talking about Erin and how's shes doing. We talked about it, odds seems slim to none that she'll be coming back and that sucks soooo much. I hate how bad things happen to such great people. Her parents and family don't deserve and she sure as hell doesn't either. No one should ever have to go through cancer or any sort of illness. Its ripping me up inside, I've even had bad dreams about the whole situation, not any I feel like sharing. I see all my friends with room mates and I just miss having Erin around :(
What a shitty begining to this week. On the plus side of all this I don't have lab for two weeks straight, and I get to go home for Thanksgiving where I'll be able to see all my wonderful friends in 7 days! I also haven't posted any lyrics of mine on this thing in a looong time..so I'm going to now:
Fallen
I have too much time alone to think
And the pictures in my head just make me sick
Cuz nothing seems to want to go my way
I'm just waiting for the better days
Nothings good and nothing's right
Just waiting for the dark of night
Give my mind a chance to rest
Give it a break from all the mess
And I'm...
Waiting for someone
To help me when I'm done
Cuz I can barely breathe
I've fallen on my knees
Pull myself out of this hole
Before I get too small
I knwo I must be strong
But I feel like I can't go on
I've fallen in way to deep
And the way back up is looking really steep
Waiting for the storm clouds to pull away
So I can the bright sun one more day
And I know life must go on
But right now I feel I'm the only one
And I'm...
Waiting for someone
To help me when I'm done
Cuz I can barely breathe
I've fallen on my knees
Pull myself out of this hole
Before I get too small (x2)
I have to much time alone to think
And the pictures in my head just make me sick
Cuz nothing seems to want to go my way
I'm just waiting for the better days