apparently i'm all about the instant gratification
jill dropped out of school so i'm moving in with her old roommates. they're both guys so theyre like "are you sure you dont have too many clothes? theres not much room in the bathroom for makeup and hair stuff" but I guess anything's better than up here on 6th, right next to the RD. no more having to take the elevator to the stratosphere and also i think there will be more to do. they're both more social than Lem and they dont sleep in the living room or have loud ethiopian conversations on MY housephone. i'm packing today, moving in tomorrow.
i need to stop getting crushes. but thats impossible so my new goal is to stop smoking every night and also Dad is making me lose 25 lbs. any tips on how to fucking do that? there's no way i'll lose that. i went swimming yesterday at the Y but got really bored and came home with a sore throat and calf cramps. i ate alot of cereal, some granola bars, OJ, a subway sandwich and a banana. started yesterday and havent gone off it yet...but I'm already bored. and hungry. if i dont see immediate results, i lose motivation and next thing you know i'm up to my elbows in generic brand ice cream. but today I have a few errands to run and i have to work so maybe i wont eat all day.
i'm so crushed...why did I have to gain 30 lbs last year...why did i have to discover weed and subsequently, The Munchies. dammit dammit dammit I'm going to be a disgusting fat cow forever. flashback-randy stewart called me a fat cow in 7th grade because he thought i stole his english worksheet. then sara botka returned it to him cuz she found it on the floor in mrs chassie's room and he didnt even apologize. good memz....anyway, i was crying so hard yesterday, just saying "i'm the ugliest piece of shit" over and over. which diet pills work? i dont even recognize myself...i cant zip my prom dress anymore, i live in sweatpants, and i order fast food with reckless abandon. send help
i need to stop getting crushes. but thats impossible so my new goal is to stop smoking every night and also Dad is making me lose 25 lbs. any tips on how to fucking do that? there's no way i'll lose that. i went swimming yesterday at the Y but got really bored and came home with a sore throat and calf cramps. i ate alot of cereal, some granola bars, OJ, a subway sandwich and a banana. started yesterday and havent gone off it yet...but I'm already bored. and hungry. if i dont see immediate results, i lose motivation and next thing you know i'm up to my elbows in generic brand ice cream. but today I have a few errands to run and i have to work so maybe i wont eat all day.
i'm so crushed...why did I have to gain 30 lbs last year...why did i have to discover weed and subsequently, The Munchies. dammit dammit dammit I'm going to be a disgusting fat cow forever. flashback-randy stewart called me a fat cow in 7th grade because he thought i stole his english worksheet. then sara botka returned it to him cuz she found it on the floor in mrs chassie's room and he didnt even apologize. good memz....anyway, i was crying so hard yesterday, just saying "i'm the ugliest piece of shit" over and over. which diet pills work? i dont even recognize myself...i cant zip my prom dress anymore, i live in sweatpants, and i order fast food with reckless abandon. send help