Pitch Black
"Life is a waterfall, were one in the river and one again after the fall." - System of a Down, Ariel
That is a good description of how i feel right now. Like i'm tumbling through the air in a waterfall with no control over myself. I don't know whats going on. I'm very confused. I used to think that i knew what i wanted, but when one part of my life fell apart so did the rest. I am at a crossroads. One path is the one i had planned on for years: ski in college, be a good person, then grad school and so on. Now i'm not so sure. The other path is full of good times, partying, most likely L.A., then i don't know what. I find myself in a struggle to enjoy life. I have two possible paths, but no clear choice. To make matters more complicated, my mind has decided to play games with me, with one part telling me one thing while the other tells me another. And part one is winning. I don't yet know what that means exactly, but when i do i'll be much better off. I don't know what to expect, but which ever way i go i hope its the right one.
Off to yet another night lying awake in bed for hours, pondering the endless possibilities that is life. I bid you all a fond good night. Adu.
That is a good description of how i feel right now. Like i'm tumbling through the air in a waterfall with no control over myself. I don't know whats going on. I'm very confused. I used to think that i knew what i wanted, but when one part of my life fell apart so did the rest. I am at a crossroads. One path is the one i had planned on for years: ski in college, be a good person, then grad school and so on. Now i'm not so sure. The other path is full of good times, partying, most likely L.A., then i don't know what. I find myself in a struggle to enjoy life. I have two possible paths, but no clear choice. To make matters more complicated, my mind has decided to play games with me, with one part telling me one thing while the other tells me another. And part one is winning. I don't yet know what that means exactly, but when i do i'll be much better off. I don't know what to expect, but which ever way i go i hope its the right one.
Off to yet another night lying awake in bed for hours, pondering the endless possibilities that is life. I bid you all a fond good night. Adu.