It's all about living life in the red
At least that what's its been like lately. If I could sum it all up on a profit and loss report, the bottom line is red. One small victory, one huge defeat. I'm fucking pissed. Today was no exception. Small victory: Finish putting seats in my dad's car, which was a total bitch. Huge defeat: pulling out of the driveway with it, and smacking into Brennan's mom's brand new Forester. There's $2000 bucks I just don't have. I can't even get a fucking job right now, I have no idea what I'm doing wrong in that regard, but it just came to a head before I could even begin to solve the issue. Still owe Brian money. Friends make jabs about me being "the bum" now because I don't have a goddamned dime to my name. Not accomplishing anything towards my future this summer. Finding some self esteem is like nailing jello to the fucking wall. Fucking grand. Just fucking excellent. Today was the last thing I needed to fuck up, and lucky me I'm stupid enough to do it.