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Let me end the drama right here.
Tonight I've come to my final opinion, and nothing or no one can sway me. I've been told by nearly everyone in my entire life that one needs to make one's own decisions and not let others influence them. A friend of mine has said it best: "You need to grow some balls and make up your own mind". A crass way to say so, but somehow poignant.
I need to do what will satisfy my own intents and purposes. I have let numerous others try and sway me from what I want, and shame on me for that. I've known what I've wanted the whole time, and simply refused to acknowledge it. From now on, I will look out for others as I always have. I genuinely care about others and the things that transpire for them. However, I must not neglect myself at the same time. To do so would be foolish and irresponsible. Honestly, when it comes to my friends and aquaintences, I love you guys. I know you care about what happens to me as I do you. But you've got to let me be my own man. I apologize for pointing fingers at anyone earlier, I was lashing out in anger. It was also hypocritical and backwards in its logic, because I was pointing out sins of the past to try and gain forgiveness for someone, Doesn't make sense, does it? I'm sorry, I should be practicing what I want to promote so badly.
I really hope we're all friends here, even those of us now estranged. There was something originally that linked us all together, and God knows it would be a bloody shame to forget it since we've entered the final stretch. This year should be one of unity between all of us, because we should be damn proud of where we are.
So yeah, if it's not apparent, I want her back. So I will act upon it. I was surprised, and had a good moment taking Vicklund home tonight after work. Even though you may not agree with me, I really appreciate what you said about me being my own man. I hope others could and will follow after you
My friends are one of the most important things in the world to me. Hopefully I would gain new found respect for making my own choice. If I have failed at that, so be it, I only hope that could change in time. But right now, I'm proud of myself, to be perfectly honest.
My only hopes are that the rest of this year is one of mutual respect, reverence, dignity, civility, and having one hell of a good time. We all claim we're almost adults now. Let's go ahead and prove we are.
I'll let my good friend Roger Daltrey speak on my behalf to close the evening.
"I don't need to fight
to prove I'm right
I don't need to be forgiven"
" The exodus is here
The happy ones are near
Let's get together
Before we get much older"
Tonight I've come to my final opinion, and nothing or no one can sway me. I've been told by nearly everyone in my entire life that one needs to make one's own decisions and not let others influence them. A friend of mine has said it best: "You need to grow some balls and make up your own mind". A crass way to say so, but somehow poignant.
I need to do what will satisfy my own intents and purposes. I have let numerous others try and sway me from what I want, and shame on me for that. I've known what I've wanted the whole time, and simply refused to acknowledge it. From now on, I will look out for others as I always have. I genuinely care about others and the things that transpire for them. However, I must not neglect myself at the same time. To do so would be foolish and irresponsible. Honestly, when it comes to my friends and aquaintences, I love you guys. I know you care about what happens to me as I do you. But you've got to let me be my own man. I apologize for pointing fingers at anyone earlier, I was lashing out in anger. It was also hypocritical and backwards in its logic, because I was pointing out sins of the past to try and gain forgiveness for someone, Doesn't make sense, does it? I'm sorry, I should be practicing what I want to promote so badly.
I really hope we're all friends here, even those of us now estranged. There was something originally that linked us all together, and God knows it would be a bloody shame to forget it since we've entered the final stretch. This year should be one of unity between all of us, because we should be damn proud of where we are.
So yeah, if it's not apparent, I want her back. So I will act upon it. I was surprised, and had a good moment taking Vicklund home tonight after work. Even though you may not agree with me, I really appreciate what you said about me being my own man. I hope others could and will follow after you
My friends are one of the most important things in the world to me. Hopefully I would gain new found respect for making my own choice. If I have failed at that, so be it, I only hope that could change in time. But right now, I'm proud of myself, to be perfectly honest.
My only hopes are that the rest of this year is one of mutual respect, reverence, dignity, civility, and having one hell of a good time. We all claim we're almost adults now. Let's go ahead and prove we are.
I'll let my good friend Roger Daltrey speak on my behalf to close the evening.
"I don't need to fight
to prove I'm right
I don't need to be forgiven"
" The exodus is here
The happy ones are near
Let's get together
Before we get much older"