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So my grandmothers ashes were spread in the gulf of Mexico today. Since I was young I always knew that's what she wanted and I have always thought about what I'm going to do when that day comes. I always thought I would see my grandmother as part of the gulf and have some spiritual connection with the water because my grandmother was sprinkled over it....i dont though. i feel like shes gone now, like i have no place to go to visit her. I feel alone without her, I know i didn't live with her nor did i see her everyday, but i did love her more than aanything in the world. and when the most valuable person i have is gone...all i have left is feeling lonely. It was so final watching it happen, it looked like a bag of sand being dumped into the water. But i knew it w as my grandmother and knowing that she had been reduced to sand was a terrible feeling.....However, i did solve my sadness temporarily by many goose&cran...and champaign...and beer.