im alive
Hmmm... I haven't written here in a very long time and I think its about time.
I can almost legally drive my sister!!! yessum, in 15 days!!! also in 15 days - well lets just say its been quite a bit of time (umm, 10 months to be exact - and lovin' every moment of it)
Friendly's is AMAZING - i just love all the people working there - well for the most part. But I'm gonna miss all the trainers, what am i saying i am missing them, tears got shed... but "Who's up to going to Windsor Locks???"
Oh, a lil tid bit to add - life sucks when its confusing and you're left out. But hey, looking on the bright side of things - i actually think that i know what i want my future to hold. Took me quite some time to figure that one out, but I finally did and its such an amazing feeling. I also just love the fact that I can put things that normally bother me on the side and just keep smiling. Life has seemed so simple lately and even though I feel like crying sometimes, i think of all the great memories ive had with all those close to me and end up laughing and smiling.
*~I think its kind of weird that whenever someone asks me about my twin (Where is your twin?) that I bluntly say "She died" and try my best to move on, however their impression is "What? and how could you just say that?" I mean is it bad that it eats me up so bad inside that I at times can't talk about it without wanting to cry. I always want to cry when I talk about her - my sweet guardian angel. It's so hard at times to tell the story over and over again... sigh... did i mention that Twin Day at school is hell for me? Especially this year when most of the twins we have at school went as twins? I just wanted to not be in school that day - I remember coming home to cry...~* *~ sorry that was a bit random, but I was asked about the whole "story" during Math yesterday I believe it was... and well, one of my friends saw right thru me realizing that it was hard to talk about and I was just trying to push the topic away without breaking down, while the one questioning me was surprised that i just said "She died." without having a quite "visible" upsetting reaction ~*
Hopefully I'll write more soon...
Love ya all!!!
I can almost legally drive my sister!!! yessum, in 15 days!!! also in 15 days - well lets just say its been quite a bit of time (umm, 10 months to be exact - and lovin' every moment of it)
Friendly's is AMAZING - i just love all the people working there - well for the most part. But I'm gonna miss all the trainers, what am i saying i am missing them, tears got shed... but "Who's up to going to Windsor Locks???"
Oh, a lil tid bit to add - life sucks when its confusing and you're left out. But hey, looking on the bright side of things - i actually think that i know what i want my future to hold. Took me quite some time to figure that one out, but I finally did and its such an amazing feeling. I also just love the fact that I can put things that normally bother me on the side and just keep smiling. Life has seemed so simple lately and even though I feel like crying sometimes, i think of all the great memories ive had with all those close to me and end up laughing and smiling.
*~I think its kind of weird that whenever someone asks me about my twin (Where is your twin?) that I bluntly say "She died" and try my best to move on, however their impression is "What? and how could you just say that?" I mean is it bad that it eats me up so bad inside that I at times can't talk about it without wanting to cry. I always want to cry when I talk about her - my sweet guardian angel. It's so hard at times to tell the story over and over again... sigh... did i mention that Twin Day at school is hell for me? Especially this year when most of the twins we have at school went as twins? I just wanted to not be in school that day - I remember coming home to cry...~* *~ sorry that was a bit random, but I was asked about the whole "story" during Math yesterday I believe it was... and well, one of my friends saw right thru me realizing that it was hard to talk about and I was just trying to push the topic away without breaking down, while the one questioning me was surprised that i just said "She died." without having a quite "visible" upsetting reaction ~*
Hopefully I'll write more soon...
Love ya all!!!