As to why I wish I was still a child.....
I know, I know first thought would be why would Harley wanna be a teen again, all that bullying, emotional pain and eating disorders. Fun! And NO!
That is why I said child.
I was a 'young' child. Very imature, kinda cute too honest. And I had simple wishes...the most famous of which is that at a pre-teen state I happily anounced that when I was older I wanted a husband, 10 children and a zoo. I stuck with this 'wish' for several years and part of me still dreams it now. The part of me who wishes beyond hope that I am still that child.
When I was younger the hardest things in life was............After spending all play time parading round the playground linking arms with my friends and chanting 'Who wants to play handstands (etc)' why did we never actually play the game we advertised?! We just spent all those minutes walking round linked arms and shouting till half the school had linked arms and was shouting but we NEVER actually played the game!
And waking up early. As a kid this was not a problem. I'd be up with the crack of dawn, yellow Care Bear t-shirt on and feet happily tucked into my roller skates. Man! I lived in those skates ( Note skated not boots or even blades. Such a depraved child! ) and straight up to my friends houses. One by one. I knew they wouldn't be awake yet but that didn't stop me trying! Then skating up and down the road till they'd finally join me. Today.....well let's just not go there! Getting up is a neccessary evil! Oh but I do miss my roller skates!
And something that I picked up from my dad, but I was so proud of myself as I felt closer to dad from it and my dad looked like Clark Kent in earlier years, he really was my super man. So with a religous ( one I still believe in to this day ) upbringing, we were a healthy family. No tea or coffee or coke. Yeps no caffiene because it's a drug and we don't take drugs.........................unless you have a headache or cough, then we take drugs, those drugs are ok.
So as a slightly confussed kid it was hard for me to take in the fact that some drugs are bad for us and our bodies, ever though the teas one that hundred of people took every day some in multiple intakes. Then there were other drugs that way fewer people took like paracetamol but they were good.
Now my dad wouldn't take any of these things, asprin , paracetamoml, Beniylin etc. I caught wind of this and decided the same. I was drug and meds free! Wheeeeeee!
I didn't take a paracetamol until about 10 years ago. True story! Of course the evils of adulthood soon catch up and I now take 14 tablets a day. I real haul of meds! But I miss that 'clean' me.
That Jules child who looked at the stars every night focused on the very first one I saw and chanted.....
'Star Light, Star brigh, First star see tonight, I wish I may I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight........I wish for a pony!' I squeezed my eyes tight shut on that last [part annnnnd the best part of adult hood.....that came true. That pony is Holly ( Yes I know not strictly a pony but she was still my first born and I love her.)
And for the above reasons and many many more3......I wish I was still a child!
My tears today, well some of them, are for that sweet Julie. With her bunches and grin. I wonder if she's gone forever?
Julesy kitten xox
That is why I said child.
I was a 'young' child. Very imature, kinda cute too honest. And I had simple wishes...the most famous of which is that at a pre-teen state I happily anounced that when I was older I wanted a husband, 10 children and a zoo. I stuck with this 'wish' for several years and part of me still dreams it now. The part of me who wishes beyond hope that I am still that child.
When I was younger the hardest things in life was............After spending all play time parading round the playground linking arms with my friends and chanting 'Who wants to play handstands (etc)' why did we never actually play the game we advertised?! We just spent all those minutes walking round linked arms and shouting till half the school had linked arms and was shouting but we NEVER actually played the game!
And waking up early. As a kid this was not a problem. I'd be up with the crack of dawn, yellow Care Bear t-shirt on and feet happily tucked into my roller skates. Man! I lived in those skates ( Note skated not boots or even blades. Such a depraved child! ) and straight up to my friends houses. One by one. I knew they wouldn't be awake yet but that didn't stop me trying! Then skating up and down the road till they'd finally join me. Today.....well let's just not go there! Getting up is a neccessary evil! Oh but I do miss my roller skates!
And something that I picked up from my dad, but I was so proud of myself as I felt closer to dad from it and my dad looked like Clark Kent in earlier years, he really was my super man. So with a religous ( one I still believe in to this day ) upbringing, we were a healthy family. No tea or coffee or coke. Yeps no caffiene because it's a drug and we don't take drugs.........................unless you have a headache or cough, then we take drugs, those drugs are ok.
So as a slightly confussed kid it was hard for me to take in the fact that some drugs are bad for us and our bodies, ever though the teas one that hundred of people took every day some in multiple intakes. Then there were other drugs that way fewer people took like paracetamol but they were good.
Now my dad wouldn't take any of these things, asprin , paracetamoml, Beniylin etc. I caught wind of this and decided the same. I was drug and meds free! Wheeeeeee!
I didn't take a paracetamol until about 10 years ago. True story! Of course the evils of adulthood soon catch up and I now take 14 tablets a day. I real haul of meds! But I miss that 'clean' me.
That Jules child who looked at the stars every night focused on the very first one I saw and chanted.....
'Star Light, Star brigh, First star see tonight, I wish I may I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight........I wish for a pony!' I squeezed my eyes tight shut on that last [part annnnnd the best part of adult hood.....that came true. That pony is Holly ( Yes I know not strictly a pony but she was still my first born and I love her.)
And for the above reasons and many many more3......I wish I was still a child!
My tears today, well some of them, are for that sweet Julie. With her bunches and grin. I wonder if she's gone forever?
Julesy kitten xox