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Well, once again merry christmas. this time i'm a little more sober. i spent the day at meg's with the foxes. it was a lot more barable after a few brewskies. This year i've learned to accept my family how they are, no matter how fucked up. except for micheal, cause that's just too fucked up. but other than that, i really do love them.
on another note, i just talked to cameron and she had lunch with lauren and her family a few days ago. it still makes me sad how this always happens. anyays, they want to get together sometime soon when i get back to NC. i'd like this, but i'm not getting my hopes up to high, especially since it took me until just a few months ago to let all that go. i'm afraid when i see them i'll cry. actually i know i will, but atleast now i know that they will not be the biggest loves in my life. they were only a part of it, not what made me. just a part. i hope seeing them woln't just be a look into the past and remind me that nothing will ever be the same. maybe we'll be able to move forward and be friends again. maybe...
on another note, i just talked to cameron and she had lunch with lauren and her family a few days ago. it still makes me sad how this always happens. anyays, they want to get together sometime soon when i get back to NC. i'd like this, but i'm not getting my hopes up to high, especially since it took me until just a few months ago to let all that go. i'm afraid when i see them i'll cry. actually i know i will, but atleast now i know that they will not be the biggest loves in my life. they were only a part of it, not what made me. just a part. i hope seeing them woln't just be a look into the past and remind me that nothing will ever be the same. maybe we'll be able to move forward and be friends again. maybe...