WHAAAWWWW. mothafucka..
ever feel so strange inside that you couldnt find any word in the
dictionary to define how you feel? ever feel so happy and so sad at the
same time, only to realize youre not sure how you feel at all? ever
kinda just wanna die quick and immediately, but then think you have so
much to live for? maybe you have, maybe you havent. but yea i feel like
that. im not sure exactly how i feel. im gonna make a list at the end
of this entry off all the emotions im feeling. itll take a while..
florida was incredible. i wish i was still there. i can honestly say that the only people i missed were the people that actually cared enough to call me while i was there. i missed my friends so much. i missed my teeki and my sammypoo and my lauren and my nurse mandee and my shay-nah. i missed my girlfriend so much, and i still do. life is florida was superb, absolute paradise. i wanted to cry on the way to the airport and just beg my uncle to let me stay. i cant believe i left the 90 degree weather to come back to this 40 degree shit hole. god dammit. i plan on getting plane tickets and returning to the exact same area during the summer. or even drive down there. anyone up for a roadtrip? let me know, we'll figure something out. ahhh i miss pompano beach <333333..
so while i was in florida, the pope died. teek did shrooms and e. terri schiavo died. my house has like 12 new doors. my sister became an aunt. dramamine is now the cool new drug. lauren and a fucking ape are apparently an item. two other girls decided to become bisexual. kids are breaking up. will from work got arrested for busting in a kids window. donna from work is quitting. we got a new assistant manager. rebecca got her tongue pierced. heather decided to put in her two weeks. FRIGIN CHRIST WHERE THE HELL DID THIS ALL COME FROM. a week and a half and so much drama and shit go down. i cant even go somewhere for a week, i cant let these kids out of my site for a minute. gawsh..
um so im pretty heated. some bitch is gonna get her ass kicked. maybe im wrong for doing so, but ive never wanted to beat the shit out of someone so bad in my life. i dont give a flying fuck if this is printed out to my parents or not, im going to beat the shit out of this girl. im going to go to jail because im going to fucking beat the shit out of her. i dont care what the consiquences are. this girl fucked with me, and fucked with people im close with. she stepped over a line that should never be crossed, and for that she needs to pay. im coming for you, watch your fucking back..
tomorrow i have a long day. wednesday as well. tomorrow i have school and then going out to get teekipie and then getting my hair streaked. pretty sweet if you ask me. wednesday, me teek and mandee are going to pay a little visit to a certain place. its planned out perfect where if cops get involved, they cant do shit to me. fuck being 18, i really do not care. my body is shaking from the anger inside me. one hit, and shes not getting back up..
on a good note, i love ashley hulse. she is completely amazing and shell never be anything less. i loovveee herrr..
im out. this nights been furious. peace.
there isnt a word in the english language to describe how i feel..
pained
upset
furious
ecstatic
romantic
calm
nervous
achy
curious
content
giggly
down
depressed
unloved
unsatisfied
invincible
cautious
worried
fearless
itchy
stressed
hungry
fed up
raging
aggrivated
contemplative
malicious
loquacious
gregarious
suffering
anguish
unmotivated
tired
done
adrenaline-filled
shaky
accomplished
blank
florida was incredible. i wish i was still there. i can honestly say that the only people i missed were the people that actually cared enough to call me while i was there. i missed my friends so much. i missed my teeki and my sammypoo and my lauren and my nurse mandee and my shay-nah. i missed my girlfriend so much, and i still do. life is florida was superb, absolute paradise. i wanted to cry on the way to the airport and just beg my uncle to let me stay. i cant believe i left the 90 degree weather to come back to this 40 degree shit hole. god dammit. i plan on getting plane tickets and returning to the exact same area during the summer. or even drive down there. anyone up for a roadtrip? let me know, we'll figure something out. ahhh i miss pompano beach <333333..
so while i was in florida, the pope died. teek did shrooms and e. terri schiavo died. my house has like 12 new doors. my sister became an aunt. dramamine is now the cool new drug. lauren and a fucking ape are apparently an item. two other girls decided to become bisexual. kids are breaking up. will from work got arrested for busting in a kids window. donna from work is quitting. we got a new assistant manager. rebecca got her tongue pierced. heather decided to put in her two weeks. FRIGIN CHRIST WHERE THE HELL DID THIS ALL COME FROM. a week and a half and so much drama and shit go down. i cant even go somewhere for a week, i cant let these kids out of my site for a minute. gawsh..
um so im pretty heated. some bitch is gonna get her ass kicked. maybe im wrong for doing so, but ive never wanted to beat the shit out of someone so bad in my life. i dont give a flying fuck if this is printed out to my parents or not, im going to beat the shit out of this girl. im going to go to jail because im going to fucking beat the shit out of her. i dont care what the consiquences are. this girl fucked with me, and fucked with people im close with. she stepped over a line that should never be crossed, and for that she needs to pay. im coming for you, watch your fucking back..
tomorrow i have a long day. wednesday as well. tomorrow i have school and then going out to get teekipie and then getting my hair streaked. pretty sweet if you ask me. wednesday, me teek and mandee are going to pay a little visit to a certain place. its planned out perfect where if cops get involved, they cant do shit to me. fuck being 18, i really do not care. my body is shaking from the anger inside me. one hit, and shes not getting back up..
on a good note, i love ashley hulse. she is completely amazing and shell never be anything less. i loovveee herrr..
im out. this nights been furious. peace.
there isnt a word in the english language to describe how i feel..
pained
upset
furious
ecstatic
romantic
calm
nervous
achy
curious
content
giggly
down
depressed
unloved
unsatisfied
invincible
cautious
worried
fearless
itchy
stressed
hungry
fed up
raging
aggrivated
contemplative
malicious
loquacious
gregarious
suffering
anguish
unmotivated
tired
done
adrenaline-filled
shaky
accomplished
blank