May 07, 2003 17:11
Ok, this is all just useless drama, but I guess that were I to be involved in some right now, this would be it. I hope that I don't offend or name names. I'm going to try to keep it calm.
First of all, we have a problem. Our "group" has a major problem. I mean, this is senior year. The last quarter of it even! We're at a point in our lives where everything is so undecided or unsure that it seems like everything is up for question. Our futures are the most uncertain they've ever been. We should be able to have at least one thing standard right now, and that should be our friends. The people in our group should be those who we can count on all the time, now especially. We should be able to count on them to have fun with, to enjoy hanging out with each other, to relieve some of this stress, to close the end of the year on a high note, rather than at rock bottom...But it doesn't seem like this is happeneing.
Why? I'll tell you...
First of all, there's just too much animosity for us to really consider ourselves a group of "friends." Everyone hates or seems to hate one another for seemingly nothing at this point. I mean, and this is where I have to be careful not to point out people, but we're all guilty of it, so it doesn't matter. There's just so much conflict, and yes, probably, some people are more at the center of it than others.
Too many people are worried about being ditched. Too many people are worried that they're unwanted. Too many people are worried hat things are going on behind their backs. Too many people are suspicious of everyone else. Too many people are trying to do what's "cool" and not what's pertinent or inclusive of everyone.
The drugs? I mean, C'MON! I know I'm not exempt, but come on! In our final months together, we're letting these things come in the way of the bonds we used to share, at least on the surface, at one point. Its just grown ridiculous. Wer should all give it up. There are certain things not worth fighting over, this is one of them. Myabe last year when it was newly predominant to our circle I can understand it more, but now...whoever wanted it has had ample time to have his or her fill by now.
Next, relationships. Oh my jeepers. These are just as huge a problem. Ok, again, no names, but some people have to grow up, you know? Like, if you have a problem, then talk about it...in private...but talk about it. Everyone! Talk about it! These "bedroom" issues should stay there for the various couples, and there are various ones. I don't knwo what the point ofbeing a couple is if those involved can't seem to hang out with other people as well. I mean, if there are issues, as I said, discuss them. Don't bring down the group. If you're too pressed on getting play to be able to enjoy a time out with your friends, and girl/boyfriend, that is play-free, then you have a problem. Don't isolate yourself with just one other person now, its time to engross yourself in the funness of everyone.
Jealousy...Don't even get me started. Too many people are caught on misinterpretations, rumors, or the past, which lead them to always be on the watch, paranoid, and jealous. We all know it. We've all done it. Now, though, we should put it behind us. Within three months, we'll all be with different people anyways.
The long and short of it is that we all have to grow up! Damn! Just grow up, wise up, and smart up. If this is how you all want to go out senior year, then fine. But it's not how I want to end it all. I'm proposing a dinner. Or something. What isn't the issue, but why and how. I want to do some sort of gathering, like the Christmas thing at my house, that fiasco, was intended to be. We all need to just chill, sit, talk, and have fun. And, most importantly, either clear the air or break bread together. We have to put this all behind us. I'm gonna work on this, because I think that we can all acknowledge that it's imperative at this point.
Some things have to be decided. We're all about to leave. We should be able to figure out what is most important to each of us at this point, with only 2 months to go. I'd like to leave Arlington with a clean feeling, clean air between us all. That's what we have now, time to decide. Let's use it, for our own sake.