It's happening again.

[sketchslife]

I have baby fever again.. ehh. It sucks so bad. I meen I feel like shit now I would have already had my baby.. but no Im a bitch. I really don't want to work anymore. I just want to be a stay at home momma forever, isn't that suppose to be the american dream? I really feel like a cunt because I see now that Screamer would have been a great dad. ::sighs:: Well anyways, enough about that shit. I have been working my ass off for the last 3 weeks it seems like I don't have any settle down time. I feel like im missing out on a lot of shit. I couldn't go to mason's b-day, working, couldn't go to the day parade..again working. And it doesn't seem like im making enough money to be missing out on this much stuff. I just want to live. I want to get my own place have a job I don't mind getting up in the morning and going to. I want to spend more time with my family cause I haven't done that in so long, I love my family and im never around. Im always trying to catch the next party. The next drunk, high..whatever. I have been sleeping a lot better on a lighter note.. thank god cause I would have killed over dead. I need to lay off the xanax for real that shit was fucking me up metally. God I don't think I have wrote this much in here in like years.
Umm what else has been going on.....hmm.
Oh yeah I went to a work function dinner thingy and won a 10 dolla giftcard and a iPod nano. Which I sold to my brother this morning for 100 bux. My boss didn't like the fact that I was drinking at the little suare` but whatever im done trying to impress him. Im just out to be me.