heave a sweet sigh.....

[sketch_bones]

I think I made peace with Shannyn today. We were both realy bored in our Philosophy class and I asked her out for tea. We ended up going out to the grad lounge where she works and chatting over tea and a bowl lof beans and rice. Sitting across from her I was trying to catch her gaze and every so once in a while she would let me. I hated how she felt so nervous. I was kinda nervous too. I remember always trying to capture her gaze and how difficult it was cause she was scared of showing me who she was. "You knew me more than I thought you did" she said. We spoke about lots of stuff. I got some random thoughts off my chest and cleared away some stupid thoughts I had. We chatted about our future plans and music and eating junk and so much stuff.

I'm so glad I had that time to chat. I got to hear and see things straight from her lips. I knew she was sincere all along but I just needed to see it. It was quite a powerful moment for us both I think. Definitely the first kind of ex meeting I've had that really meant anything. We parted ways this time in a much different way than we had before. I don't think I could have ever expected it to go that way but I am certainly glad it did. I hugged her and she apologized and I got goosebumps and truely thanked her like I have not thanked anyone in a long time. It really meant a lot to me.

I wonder what the future has in store. Who knows............

Thanks to you... or something to that effect;)