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Well it's over for good....
And I'm OK with that...I guess.
We had a long talk about it today and he said he doesn't feel the same way about me - that he's trying to but he just doesn't have the feelings anymore - and that I haven't been giving him space (gee I'm sorry you say you want space and then you say to text/call - you can't get mad at me for texting/calling when you told me to!). I said I felt like we were meant to be and he said too much has happened and that his great grandmother called to find out why there was damage between him and his mom and that she hadn't been sleeping. He said he's slept great since I haven't been there and all he wants to do is be himself (which means hanging out at mommy and daddy's and playing video games). So that's fine.
He'll never be able to be with any woman because his mom will fight him on her until he drops her. He's admitted that I was the most amazing relationship he's ever been in and yet he's willing to give it all up because of what happened between his mom and me. I can't do anything. All I said is that I hope one day he wakes up, realizes he's miserable without me and tells his mom that he loves me and would appreciate it if she would love me too. Nothing like this has ever happened to him before and he swears that if we got back together we'd end up at the same spot. I think and I believe this, that everyone got scared and it all blew up. Everything was moving too quickly and that's how things ended up being the way they are.
Maybe it was crazy for me to go there but I needed answers and being ignored was not the way for me to get them. What I did notice was that his entire place had changed and when I asked him where my toothbrush was he said he didn't know that his mom had changed everything. His bathroom had been completely cleaned and reorganized - the towels were different as was the sink stuff (new toothbrush of his own). There were cleaning products in his shower where you know she tried to erase every DNA sample I could have left from taking a shower there. I bet she washed his sheets too. The photo frame with our picture in it was down and he didn't know where it was. She pretty much went over there while he was out and erased me from his place. The same guy who said he liked finding my hair in his apartment because it reminded him of me and made him miss me now has no real memory of my being there.
I think he's so confused. I mentioned that my heels were still there and my tennis racket and he asked me if I wanted them and I said not right now and I asked if he wanted me to take them and he said he didn't want me to do anything I didn't want to do. I said then fine they can stay for awhile. If he wanted me gone for good he would have made me take them, don't you think?
He said he didn't see us as meant to be and all the signs have been pointing to no as of late. I said all the signs had been pointing to yes for me. So I don't know. I told him that I'd give him forever if that's what he needed because I see forever with him and I told him that I wouldn't call or text him until he called or text me. My guess is that he's deleting my number from his phone as I type this. *sigh*
My perfect relationship - my forever boy - gone in a week. At least I got him to agree that it was the most amazing relationship he's ever been in and that it was perfect even if he doesn't see it as forever. At least I got a hug and kiss goodbye (although the kiss was something I wanted not so much him but he did give it to me - twice).
c'est la vie I guess...
And I'm OK with that...I guess.
We had a long talk about it today and he said he doesn't feel the same way about me - that he's trying to but he just doesn't have the feelings anymore - and that I haven't been giving him space (gee I'm sorry you say you want space and then you say to text/call - you can't get mad at me for texting/calling when you told me to!). I said I felt like we were meant to be and he said too much has happened and that his great grandmother called to find out why there was damage between him and his mom and that she hadn't been sleeping. He said he's slept great since I haven't been there and all he wants to do is be himself (which means hanging out at mommy and daddy's and playing video games). So that's fine.
He'll never be able to be with any woman because his mom will fight him on her until he drops her. He's admitted that I was the most amazing relationship he's ever been in and yet he's willing to give it all up because of what happened between his mom and me. I can't do anything. All I said is that I hope one day he wakes up, realizes he's miserable without me and tells his mom that he loves me and would appreciate it if she would love me too. Nothing like this has ever happened to him before and he swears that if we got back together we'd end up at the same spot. I think and I believe this, that everyone got scared and it all blew up. Everything was moving too quickly and that's how things ended up being the way they are.
Maybe it was crazy for me to go there but I needed answers and being ignored was not the way for me to get them. What I did notice was that his entire place had changed and when I asked him where my toothbrush was he said he didn't know that his mom had changed everything. His bathroom had been completely cleaned and reorganized - the towels were different as was the sink stuff (new toothbrush of his own). There were cleaning products in his shower where you know she tried to erase every DNA sample I could have left from taking a shower there. I bet she washed his sheets too. The photo frame with our picture in it was down and he didn't know where it was. She pretty much went over there while he was out and erased me from his place. The same guy who said he liked finding my hair in his apartment because it reminded him of me and made him miss me now has no real memory of my being there.
I think he's so confused. I mentioned that my heels were still there and my tennis racket and he asked me if I wanted them and I said not right now and I asked if he wanted me to take them and he said he didn't want me to do anything I didn't want to do. I said then fine they can stay for awhile. If he wanted me gone for good he would have made me take them, don't you think?
He said he didn't see us as meant to be and all the signs have been pointing to no as of late. I said all the signs had been pointing to yes for me. So I don't know. I told him that I'd give him forever if that's what he needed because I see forever with him and I told him that I wouldn't call or text him until he called or text me. My guess is that he's deleting my number from his phone as I type this. *sigh*
My perfect relationship - my forever boy - gone in a week. At least I got him to agree that it was the most amazing relationship he's ever been in and that it was perfect even if he doesn't see it as forever. At least I got a hug and kiss goodbye (although the kiss was something I wanted not so much him but he did give it to me - twice).
c'est la vie I guess...