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Maybe its the lack of sleep and my mind racing a million miles a minute and maybe this has no standing but I need to get it out anyway.
I move to Chicago soon. And, this is the biggest move I've ever made. This will be the biggest change ever thus far in my life. It's not like when I moved to Atlanta. My mom's only been an hour away at the most for my entire life, but when I move there, who do I have? It's gonna be hard, and I'm so scared that I'm not ready.. half of the time, I can't wait to get away and the other half I'm freaking out because this is so real.
Yeah, so I have a boyfriend that lives in Chicago. He used to read this, but I'm not sure if he does anymore. I know I'm not the best girlfriend in the world, but honestly I don't think he's been the best boyfriend either. Maybe it's my nerves getting to me, but I honestly think he has another girlfriend in Chicago. How would I ask something like that? How would I bring it up without being completely irrational? How would I deal with it if he really did. Yeah, we haven't been able to spend too much time together, but it would still hurt.
I'll have no friends and have to start completely over. It's not as if I need a boyfriend in my life, but having someone stable, someone from the area someone close someone that I could count on if I ever needed it. I'm not really sure about it all. I'm just so nervous. But it's too late to back out now. This is the chance of a lifetime, and I have to take it. I just need answers, I need a shoulder to lean on.
I move to Chicago soon. And, this is the biggest move I've ever made. This will be the biggest change ever thus far in my life. It's not like when I moved to Atlanta. My mom's only been an hour away at the most for my entire life, but when I move there, who do I have? It's gonna be hard, and I'm so scared that I'm not ready.. half of the time, I can't wait to get away and the other half I'm freaking out because this is so real.
Yeah, so I have a boyfriend that lives in Chicago. He used to read this, but I'm not sure if he does anymore. I know I'm not the best girlfriend in the world, but honestly I don't think he's been the best boyfriend either. Maybe it's my nerves getting to me, but I honestly think he has another girlfriend in Chicago. How would I ask something like that? How would I bring it up without being completely irrational? How would I deal with it if he really did. Yeah, we haven't been able to spend too much time together, but it would still hurt.
I'll have no friends and have to start completely over. It's not as if I need a boyfriend in my life, but having someone stable, someone from the area someone close someone that I could count on if I ever needed it. I'm not really sure about it all. I'm just so nervous. But it's too late to back out now. This is the chance of a lifetime, and I have to take it. I just need answers, I need a shoulder to lean on.