FML
fine! I finally said it. fuck my life.
My friend sarah is no longer going tonight to support me. Why? because she doesnt like the bar. I DONT LIKE THE DAMN BAR. mike the owner pisses me the fuck off. but I go to whites all the fucking time with her because she wants to go there.
this all goes back to a converstation I had with someone before. I guess I just kind of expect all my closest friends to make the extra effort [even though theres no effort to it] to come out ONE NIGHT a fucking week to my event. my second job. what detemines whether I make money that night or not. Even come out once for fucks sake. but all I hear is.
*"I dont live in saginaw." -for most of you, its an hour dirve or less. crash at my house. BIG DEAL
*"omg it cost money to get in??" -ITS MONEY. get a fucking job.
*"Im only 18.. I cant drink and Im not going to a bar not to drink." -get fucking creative. bring a bottle in your purse and drink it in the bathroom. drink before hand. its not that hard to figure out. Ive been drinking at bars since I was 17.
there are a few excuses I can take.. but as far as that shit. whatever. I have people who are driving from 2 hours away who are 18 and have to sneak booze in who are coming and they arent even that close to me. its just shows what peoples priorities are when it comes to friendship.
how much louder so I have to yell it out to everyone? THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ME. so if I am important to you, you'd be there. plan and simple.
I just dont give a fuck anymore.
..this even if you hate this kind of music. its only a minute long and its how I feel 100% right now.
Click to viewfor some reason I like this one better
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now. I am going to do some promoting. tonight is a big night for me. the least you all can do is wish me the best