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so yeah, went to 211 last night. fun. except for the sight i saw concerning wally and a very gay man whose name i do not remember. for more details and the video go to www.gayasshit.com. all i got to say is that i had a dream where i did some things i hope to god i never do in real live.
finally talked to ben about every thing, i hope i made him feel better, cause i know i am better now that i know that he is ok. you never know how much a person meens to you until they are gone, or almost. all i know is that in my life all i have ever had is loss after loss. and ben is the last person i want to loose right now. i feel a conection with him. not in any gay sence, but i feel the he and i are similar in our faults and weeknesses.
i'm at marks house right now, every one is having fun playing monopoly, or watching a movie. why is it that i can feel so lonly in a house full of my friends. i guess it's what i get for wanting to be alone all the time, not alone as in not hanging out with people, but i meen as in not having a signifigant other. the whole thought of some one being with me is disturbing. why would any one want to put themselfs through that. i'm such an ass hole at times. i have a serious problem with anger. i'm lazy as all get out. i meen look at me, no job, no lisence, not even so much as a high school diploma.
well i'm done with my whole "i suck" thing. i got to go drink beer and pretend to be happy. and yes i will get my half of a blow job!!!
p.s. mark's gerbil can fuckin run in that wheel!!
finally talked to ben about every thing, i hope i made him feel better, cause i know i am better now that i know that he is ok. you never know how much a person meens to you until they are gone, or almost. all i know is that in my life all i have ever had is loss after loss. and ben is the last person i want to loose right now. i feel a conection with him. not in any gay sence, but i feel the he and i are similar in our faults and weeknesses.
i'm at marks house right now, every one is having fun playing monopoly, or watching a movie. why is it that i can feel so lonly in a house full of my friends. i guess it's what i get for wanting to be alone all the time, not alone as in not hanging out with people, but i meen as in not having a signifigant other. the whole thought of some one being with me is disturbing. why would any one want to put themselfs through that. i'm such an ass hole at times. i have a serious problem with anger. i'm lazy as all get out. i meen look at me, no job, no lisence, not even so much as a high school diploma.
well i'm done with my whole "i suck" thing. i got to go drink beer and pretend to be happy. and yes i will get my half of a blow job!!!
p.s. mark's gerbil can fuckin run in that wheel!!