=]
my mom is steadily getting nicer.
i had a lengthly conversation with her today... she told me about her "honey" haha.
God she sounds so nice... :(
sometimes I do miss her and at the same time I fucking hate her because I kept telling her that her not getting any sleep was not worth the extra 50cents working overnights at Wal Mart and she never did it. Because of that, she was extra extra extraa irritable and more easily pissed the fuck off; we fought a lot...
And now she tells me that her and Vanne spend the evenings going out to eat, going to movies or you know, stuff WE never could do because she was sleeping the whole day.
...
And it took me leaving for her to realize that.
I really don't want to be bitter but yeah I'm jealous. For us, it's been rocky and yeah most of it was my fault but it's not like she's exactly understanding. I am really fucking relieved though, because Vanne is doing better in school. A lot better. I was worried about her....
I just I could be around to enjoy her new nice calm side. I've rarely seen it since I was about 12. Earlier than that I think.
Ohwell. I'm glad she's calm for my baby sister and I'm glad that she's found a "honey" of her own. It was so funny though cause she was like, yeahhh he's real patient, never complains about anything, respects his mom like you wouldn't believe- and you'll never guess what- HE'S MEXICAN. AHHHHH we both started crackin' up because mexican men are notorious for being rather IDIOTIC in relationships and you know, the whole cliche kind of man. Or maybe it's an on-going joke between us but the whole time she kept saying I can't believe he's mexican and blah blah and she's only been with him for a week.
To me, she sounds quite smitten.
Quite smitten. She won't admit it, haha. Lmao, we were joking about who would get married first or we might even get married at the same time. She actually wants me to get married before Kyle would leave for Air Force basic training. From the first day I told her that he said he wanted to marry me, she's always said go for it. "I really hope he'll treat you better than I did."
He really has changed me. I'm kind of afraid to admit it but yeahhhh he has.
Namely, more into a girly girl. Like, I don't mind the mushy stuff anymore. Before I used to fucking hate it.
I never wanted to have kids after I saw my sister's head come out- but lately I've been thinking of baby names.
If I have a girl, I want to name her Lydia Taylor. For a boy, I did want Tylor but [shrug] I don't know. I told my mom she has to help me come up with one. She always makes fun of me for that. But again, she gots jokes. :]
[sigh] anyway. I've been in a really good mood.
I was actually drawing at like 6 this morning.
I've been coming up with new images and such, I just wish I had huge pieces of paper! [sob]
Haha, I've also been getting requests from friends to draw them either zombified or anime-style.
I was working on Roy today hahaha:
SexMex8262 (8:36:19 AM): now you need to draw an anime-esque version of The Roy.... ;-)
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:34 AM): too easy. that's a good idea though.
SexMex8262 (8:36:41 AM): I'd really like to see that
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:41 AM): O:-)
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:51 AM): hahahha okay. i did one of kyle already.
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:57 AM): hmmm
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:58 AM): ahhaha
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:01 AM): what do you say alot.
SexMex8262 (8:37:09 AM): hmmm....
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:10 AM): suxors.
SexMex8262 (8:37:11 AM): lemme thingk
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:21 AM): ...
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:31 AM): i could draw two tents lmao
SexMex8262 (8:37:36 AM): LOL
SexMex8262 (8:37:39 AM): nice!
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:49 AM): hahaaaa yeah buddy
SexMex8262 (8:37:55 AM): "just keeping it real!"
SexMex8262 (8:38:02 AM): I say that a lot
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:06 AM): and "NERD" on your tshirt
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:07 AM): haah
SexMex8262 (8:38:14 AM): you can put GEEK, it's ok
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:17 AM): or I<3GOKU
SexMex8262 (8:38:19 AM): but never NERD
SexMex8262 (8:38:22 AM): hell no!
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:24 AM): lmao!
SexMex8262 (8:38:24 AM): Gohan!
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:27 AM): WHATEVER!
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:28 AM): hahahhaha
SexMex8262 (8:38:29 AM): lol
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:45 AM): chaa boi, i'll put i heart gohan
SexMex8262 (8:38:53 AM): haha
SexMex8262 (8:38:55 AM): cute
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:56 AM): give the peace sign like a little jap
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:00 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwww
SexMex8262 (8:39:01 AM): hehe, yeah
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:02 AM): hahahhaha
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:08 AM): dude i'ma draw it now
SexMex8262 (8:39:13 AM): I'm getting a little excited!
SexMex8262 (8:39:16 AM): can't wait
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:16 AM): HAHAH!
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:29 AM): chaa boi! ... then i'll take a picture of it somehow
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:37 AM): or can you wait till april haha
SexMex8262 (8:39:45 AM): either or, it doesn't matter
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:51 AM): :-D
SexMex8262 (8:39:52 AM): but I'll cherish it very much
SexMex8262 (8:39:55 AM): ^_^
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:59 AM): cherish? oh my.
SexMex8262 (8:40:03 AM): yes!
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:06 AM): xD yay!
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:10 AM): i feel honored hahah
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:15 AM): okay okay okay lemme get on it
SexMex8262 (8:40:31 AM): *sexmex bows towards Bianca*
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:54 AM): LOL ohh my. now now. flattery is not needed hahaha
SexMex8262 (8:42:21 AM): I seriously wish they had caricurture people that did anime drawings of ya instead of that stupid shit that they do like at six flags
BwareBiancaBites (8:42:47 AM): yeah. i was actually thinkign of doing that ... like seriously.
BwareBiancaBites (8:42:55 AM): i've done most of my friends 'zombified'
SexMex8262 (8:42:58 AM): you could make quite a bit of money
BwareBiancaBites (8:43:04 AM): :-[ yeah but..
BwareBiancaBites (8:43:08 AM): idk.
SexMex8262 (8:43:47 AM): ehhh....just a little something to try, that's all
SexMex8262 (8:43:53 AM): keep it in the back of your mind
He's awesome, haha. HE'S MAD SHORT TOO! LMAO I remember meeting him my first night back in Pemberton and I was like O_o! dude! You're little! Or how he says it, "I have a huge presense" hahahah<3
My 'other sister' Sophie asked me to do her holding a tomatoe. Lmao. Who else did I do? Arthur when he was all emo-like haha, Megan... she came out cute.
Hm. I actually did myself zombified once. You can't really tell though. AH! I did Brendon! It was supposed to be a flyer for shows at his garage... haha awww, I miss that one. I did one of Sonya too. Mad long ago. I think there was more but... memory is failing me haha. Gosh darnit....
Damn.
I should've NEVER given those away. FUCK.
Oh well. "What's done is done!" -_-
It's wierd though. Steadily they're getting bloodier and bloodier haha.
When I first started them, they had like, maybe five drops of blood. Like only a drip haha and now they're covered in it.
I'm glad I had ISS on THAT day hahaha. There's this one idea that I can't get quite right. I want it to be a girl taking out her contacts but they're not really her contacts, or they'd be her eyes or something... I actually gave myself that idea. I was in the bathroom and my mom was calling me and I couldn't get one of my fucking contacts in and she was like wtf are you doing??? I said putting my eyes in or taking my eyes out. I'm quite blind haha.
I don't know, I guess I'm a little morbid. [shrug] All I know is I love horror art! [i.e. Calabrese album cover art, stuff like that]
ESPECIALLY the twisted kind- like BROM's art. OHHHH my GOD, he's amazingly grotesque. I wish I'd brought that book with me.
OOOKIE I fucking wrote a lot. O_o
Fucken caffeinne.
i had a lengthly conversation with her today... she told me about her "honey" haha.
God she sounds so nice... :(
sometimes I do miss her and at the same time I fucking hate her because I kept telling her that her not getting any sleep was not worth the extra 50cents working overnights at Wal Mart and she never did it. Because of that, she was extra extra extraa irritable and more easily pissed the fuck off; we fought a lot...
And now she tells me that her and Vanne spend the evenings going out to eat, going to movies or you know, stuff WE never could do because she was sleeping the whole day.
...
And it took me leaving for her to realize that.
I really don't want to be bitter but yeah I'm jealous. For us, it's been rocky and yeah most of it was my fault but it's not like she's exactly understanding. I am really fucking relieved though, because Vanne is doing better in school. A lot better. I was worried about her....
I just I could be around to enjoy her new nice calm side. I've rarely seen it since I was about 12. Earlier than that I think.
Ohwell. I'm glad she's calm for my baby sister and I'm glad that she's found a "honey" of her own. It was so funny though cause she was like, yeahhh he's real patient, never complains about anything, respects his mom like you wouldn't believe- and you'll never guess what- HE'S MEXICAN. AHHHHH we both started crackin' up because mexican men are notorious for being rather IDIOTIC in relationships and you know, the whole cliche kind of man. Or maybe it's an on-going joke between us but the whole time she kept saying I can't believe he's mexican and blah blah and she's only been with him for a week.
To me, she sounds quite smitten.
Quite smitten. She won't admit it, haha. Lmao, we were joking about who would get married first or we might even get married at the same time. She actually wants me to get married before Kyle would leave for Air Force basic training. From the first day I told her that he said he wanted to marry me, she's always said go for it. "I really hope he'll treat you better than I did."
He really has changed me. I'm kind of afraid to admit it but yeahhhh he has.
Namely, more into a girly girl. Like, I don't mind the mushy stuff anymore. Before I used to fucking hate it.
I never wanted to have kids after I saw my sister's head come out- but lately I've been thinking of baby names.
If I have a girl, I want to name her Lydia Taylor. For a boy, I did want Tylor but [shrug] I don't know. I told my mom she has to help me come up with one. She always makes fun of me for that. But again, she gots jokes. :]
[sigh] anyway. I've been in a really good mood.
I was actually drawing at like 6 this morning.
I've been coming up with new images and such, I just wish I had huge pieces of paper! [sob]
Haha, I've also been getting requests from friends to draw them either zombified or anime-style.
I was working on Roy today hahaha:
SexMex8262 (8:36:19 AM): now you need to draw an anime-esque version of The Roy.... ;-)
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:34 AM): too easy. that's a good idea though.
SexMex8262 (8:36:41 AM): I'd really like to see that
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:41 AM): O:-)
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:51 AM): hahahha okay. i did one of kyle already.
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:57 AM): hmmm
BwareBiancaBites (8:36:58 AM): ahhaha
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:01 AM): what do you say alot.
SexMex8262 (8:37:09 AM): hmmm....
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:10 AM): suxors.
SexMex8262 (8:37:11 AM): lemme thingk
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:21 AM): ...
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:31 AM): i could draw two tents lmao
SexMex8262 (8:37:36 AM): LOL
SexMex8262 (8:37:39 AM): nice!
BwareBiancaBites (8:37:49 AM): hahaaaa yeah buddy
SexMex8262 (8:37:55 AM): "just keeping it real!"
SexMex8262 (8:38:02 AM): I say that a lot
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:06 AM): and "NERD" on your tshirt
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:07 AM): haah
SexMex8262 (8:38:14 AM): you can put GEEK, it's ok
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:17 AM): or I<3GOKU
SexMex8262 (8:38:19 AM): but never NERD
SexMex8262 (8:38:22 AM): hell no!
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:24 AM): lmao!
SexMex8262 (8:38:24 AM): Gohan!
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:27 AM): WHATEVER!
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:28 AM): hahahhaha
SexMex8262 (8:38:29 AM): lol
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:45 AM): chaa boi, i'll put i heart gohan
SexMex8262 (8:38:53 AM): haha
SexMex8262 (8:38:55 AM): cute
BwareBiancaBites (8:38:56 AM): give the peace sign like a little jap
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:00 AM): awwwwwwwwwwwww
SexMex8262 (8:39:01 AM): hehe, yeah
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:02 AM): hahahhaha
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:08 AM): dude i'ma draw it now
SexMex8262 (8:39:13 AM): I'm getting a little excited!
SexMex8262 (8:39:16 AM): can't wait
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:16 AM): HAHAH!
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:29 AM): chaa boi! ... then i'll take a picture of it somehow
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:37 AM): or can you wait till april haha
SexMex8262 (8:39:45 AM): either or, it doesn't matter
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:51 AM): :-D
SexMex8262 (8:39:52 AM): but I'll cherish it very much
SexMex8262 (8:39:55 AM): ^_^
BwareBiancaBites (8:39:59 AM): cherish? oh my.
SexMex8262 (8:40:03 AM): yes!
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:06 AM): xD yay!
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:10 AM): i feel honored hahah
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:15 AM): okay okay okay lemme get on it
SexMex8262 (8:40:31 AM): *sexmex bows towards Bianca*
BwareBiancaBites (8:40:54 AM): LOL ohh my. now now. flattery is not needed hahaha
SexMex8262 (8:42:21 AM): I seriously wish they had caricurture people that did anime drawings of ya instead of that stupid shit that they do like at six flags
BwareBiancaBites (8:42:47 AM): yeah. i was actually thinkign of doing that ... like seriously.
BwareBiancaBites (8:42:55 AM): i've done most of my friends 'zombified'
SexMex8262 (8:42:58 AM): you could make quite a bit of money
BwareBiancaBites (8:43:04 AM): :-[ yeah but..
BwareBiancaBites (8:43:08 AM): idk.
SexMex8262 (8:43:47 AM): ehhh....just a little something to try, that's all
SexMex8262 (8:43:53 AM): keep it in the back of your mind
He's awesome, haha. HE'S MAD SHORT TOO! LMAO I remember meeting him my first night back in Pemberton and I was like O_o! dude! You're little! Or how he says it, "I have a huge presense" hahahah<3
My 'other sister' Sophie asked me to do her holding a tomatoe. Lmao. Who else did I do? Arthur when he was all emo-like haha, Megan... she came out cute.
Hm. I actually did myself zombified once. You can't really tell though. AH! I did Brendon! It was supposed to be a flyer for shows at his garage... haha awww, I miss that one. I did one of Sonya too. Mad long ago. I think there was more but... memory is failing me haha. Gosh darnit....
Damn.
I should've NEVER given those away. FUCK.
Oh well. "What's done is done!" -_-
It's wierd though. Steadily they're getting bloodier and bloodier haha.
When I first started them, they had like, maybe five drops of blood. Like only a drip haha and now they're covered in it.
I'm glad I had ISS on THAT day hahaha. There's this one idea that I can't get quite right. I want it to be a girl taking out her contacts but they're not really her contacts, or they'd be her eyes or something... I actually gave myself that idea. I was in the bathroom and my mom was calling me and I couldn't get one of my fucking contacts in and she was like wtf are you doing??? I said putting my eyes in or taking my eyes out. I'm quite blind haha.
I don't know, I guess I'm a little morbid. [shrug] All I know is I love horror art! [i.e. Calabrese album cover art, stuff like that]
ESPECIALLY the twisted kind- like BROM's art. OHHHH my GOD, he's amazingly grotesque. I wish I'd brought that book with me.
OOOKIE I fucking wrote a lot. O_o
Fucken caffeinne.