you can't carry it with you if you want to survive
It's been forever. I've been meaning to come back here, but just havent had it in me to write anything lately. Regardless, I tenaciously hang onto this thing, checking the updates of the few that are still around, and reminding myself that I've had this damn livejournal for a decade now, and it's far more satisfying and intimate than the never-ending plains of facebook, and it can't be left behind and forgotten, because I've had it longer than my dog, and I wouldn't abandon her, now would I?
Maybe I haven't updated because things haven't been easy and I have too much pride sometimes to want to say it out loud. That's not to say that things have been terrible, either, but they certainly haven't been a cake walk.
Months ago, I secured a spot for a summer design internship at a local marketing firm. The classmate and I that were given the positions have been strung along for a good six weeks now, at least - three meetings, one actual assignment we completed remotely, major delays in correspondence, apologies from the designer we're supposed to be working under, promises to email us tonight, tomorrow, that never get fulfilled. This is after promises in the beginning of full-time work through September, a possibility to travel with the firm to Vegas in the fall, and offers of "if you guys like us and we like you, we'll have full-time grown up salaried jobs waiting for you when you're out of school." I finally wrote the designer Thursday evening basically saying "uhm, so yeah, are we ever going to come in to work on a regular basis? if you no longer need us, no hard feelings, but please let us know so we can go get other work."
Aside from that crappiness, Jacob was out of work for a few weeks a month or so ago, we've been majorly broke, and as is totally predictable, being stressed has made our couple-baggage a ragingly apparent blockade to getting along the past couple of months. On the flip side, I've made some progress on some of the hang-ups I brought to the table, and that has made things a little easier, when neither of us are totally stressed and in panic mode.
Other silver linings have included the fact that Jake's new job at this hip joint owned by a pseudo celeb chef Top Chef alumnus has made him happier than probably any of his past culinary employers. Chef-owned by a flamboyantly gay, laid back and creative extrovert dude, the place is run on a daily basis by an old friend of Jacob's from a past job a couple years back, who he gets along with quite well and who treats him with the dignity often compromised by restaurant employers.
On top of that, I just got a really well paying freelance gig for a local non-profit. Really looking forward to the paycheck, and hoping that if I treat them well enough and produce good work, they'll bring me back for future design jobs, as it seems they have yet to develop a loyalty towards any past designers, for whatever reason.
And, I had a doctor's appointment the other day. Since the last time I've seen him in late April/early May, I've lost 25 pounds. That's pretty damn cool.
Just hoping the boners at the internship get back to me soon and either say "here is your much anticipated set schedule" or "sorry we dicked you around for so long, we don't have budget for paid interns/are too chaotic to manage interns right now/it's too slow to warrant bringing you on" so I can go wait tables for a while or something. Whatever they say, if it's as ambiguous as it has been, I'm moving on.
Aside from that, I went to Asheville with johnnyfavorite to see his crazy hippie mountain dwelling Asheville family and to hang out with mortimer_ford, politikitty flew from San Francisco for a visit, which was unfortunately right in the middle of the depths of Jake and I's brokeitude, so while we couldn't do a lot, it was really great to be around an old friend and reconnect with someone I hadn't seen in so very long, and had a laid back fourth of july with a few friends and a parking garage roof viewing of some fireworks.
It hasn't been an awful summer, but I'm really ready for school to start back again.
Maybe I haven't updated because things haven't been easy and I have too much pride sometimes to want to say it out loud. That's not to say that things have been terrible, either, but they certainly haven't been a cake walk.
Months ago, I secured a spot for a summer design internship at a local marketing firm. The classmate and I that were given the positions have been strung along for a good six weeks now, at least - three meetings, one actual assignment we completed remotely, major delays in correspondence, apologies from the designer we're supposed to be working under, promises to email us tonight, tomorrow, that never get fulfilled. This is after promises in the beginning of full-time work through September, a possibility to travel with the firm to Vegas in the fall, and offers of "if you guys like us and we like you, we'll have full-time grown up salaried jobs waiting for you when you're out of school." I finally wrote the designer Thursday evening basically saying "uhm, so yeah, are we ever going to come in to work on a regular basis? if you no longer need us, no hard feelings, but please let us know so we can go get other work."
Aside from that crappiness, Jacob was out of work for a few weeks a month or so ago, we've been majorly broke, and as is totally predictable, being stressed has made our couple-baggage a ragingly apparent blockade to getting along the past couple of months. On the flip side, I've made some progress on some of the hang-ups I brought to the table, and that has made things a little easier, when neither of us are totally stressed and in panic mode.
Other silver linings have included the fact that Jake's new job at this hip joint owned by a pseudo celeb chef Top Chef alumnus has made him happier than probably any of his past culinary employers. Chef-owned by a flamboyantly gay, laid back and creative extrovert dude, the place is run on a daily basis by an old friend of Jacob's from a past job a couple years back, who he gets along with quite well and who treats him with the dignity often compromised by restaurant employers.
On top of that, I just got a really well paying freelance gig for a local non-profit. Really looking forward to the paycheck, and hoping that if I treat them well enough and produce good work, they'll bring me back for future design jobs, as it seems they have yet to develop a loyalty towards any past designers, for whatever reason.
And, I had a doctor's appointment the other day. Since the last time I've seen him in late April/early May, I've lost 25 pounds. That's pretty damn cool.
Just hoping the boners at the internship get back to me soon and either say "here is your much anticipated set schedule" or "sorry we dicked you around for so long, we don't have budget for paid interns/are too chaotic to manage interns right now/it's too slow to warrant bringing you on" so I can go wait tables for a while or something. Whatever they say, if it's as ambiguous as it has been, I'm moving on.
Aside from that, I went to Asheville with johnnyfavorite to see his crazy hippie mountain dwelling Asheville family and to hang out with mortimer_ford, politikitty flew from San Francisco for a visit, which was unfortunately right in the middle of the depths of Jake and I's brokeitude, so while we couldn't do a lot, it was really great to be around an old friend and reconnect with someone I hadn't seen in so very long, and had a laid back fourth of july with a few friends and a parking garage roof viewing of some fireworks.
It hasn't been an awful summer, but I'm really ready for school to start back again.