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Lately I've been feeling so unproductive...I work to pay bills. That is not enough to sustain me, I feel like I have no meaning whatsoever, I would really like to start doing art and concentrating on that, and trying to do something with it, but I think I might just be stupid to even try...it isn't like i'm some super talented person, with wowza artistic style. lol It would be awesome to do something creative though, the lack of creativity is making me wilt, and I don't want to shrivel to nothing.
This job is mindless work.....I feel like I'm wasting my time there. It is nice to be busy and to be making a little bit of cash, but it a waste of life, really. I think i'm just scared to be creative and having nothing to show for it but some bad paintings and failure.
What do I have to lose though really? I've already wasted so much life on nothing....
Which also reminds me that I HAVE to do something about college...
must go
must finish
must figure out what i'm doing
must go to work now
byebye
This job is mindless work.....I feel like I'm wasting my time there. It is nice to be busy and to be making a little bit of cash, but it a waste of life, really. I think i'm just scared to be creative and having nothing to show for it but some bad paintings and failure.
What do I have to lose though really? I've already wasted so much life on nothing....
Which also reminds me that I HAVE to do something about college...
must go
must finish
must figure out what i'm doing
must go to work now
byebye