vegas in t-minus 6 hours
Doctors.
I heard the one sentence i didn't want to hear today. i fucking hate doctors, they just make my life living hell. so i went to my doctors and he came in the room and one of the first things he said with a smile on his face was "welcome to the rest of your life" WHY THE HELL WAS HE SMILEING??? i hate him! i hate my life! grrrrthey told me i was doin fine like 5 days ago, but now its worst, how could that happen? i hate thiss, i fucking hate the world, i hate everything, WHY ME? why me? what did i do? do i deserve this? did i do something so bad that they want to put me through hell? sometimes i just wonder..... i hate today, i hate this earth i hate this plant and i FUCKING HATE THIS STAGE 1 BULLSHIT!
Wow, I'm stressed.
When I think of him ... I still smile.
I never want it to end.
wtfffff.
do i even want a boyfriend?
I saw today that Pepsi came out with a new diet soda in their "Jazz" division called "Caramel Cream". I don't know about you but that just sounds awful. Like the title implies, it reminds me of Chocolate Soda and what great idea that was. -_-
So there's this guy at work, Gary who just totally skeezes me out. But there's a curly haired fatty - I love you. Marry me.
I'm such a procrastionator.
EDIT:
So I leave for Vegas in less than 6 hours ... and I'm thinking that mayyybe I could use a hug. I was hoping he'd see me off on the plane. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate having Lindsey and Amber there ... but it's just not the same.
I really do need a hug ... *sigh*
I hope y'all have a wicked horrible week without me =)