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ok, so it's been a while since my last entry because i've been so buisy ...these damn rehersals for the school play...this week they've been having us stay till 10! last week it was untill 6 or 8....i actually tried to write an entry about joey getting OUT of jail and...something else....dammit, i forget now. well my sister closed the page b4 i posted it....so that beautiful entry will never ever been seen again. so sad. i guess it wasn't ment to be.
meh.
So, yes i didn't go to school today....heh, funny, the last entry i think i was skipping then too ...also the last time i skipped...or was it the one b4 that? i'm rambling, you must be able to tell i'm a little twincy bit stonned. really guys, didn't smoke that much. ..now back on topic. yeah with these rehersals i don't have enough time to sleep. i just can't seem to function anymore on just 3 to 5 hours of sleep per night average that i used to. if i have to do anything on the computer/can't do in the cafeteria, i have to wait to do it when i get home...but when i get home i'm sooo freaking beat that even if i try to force myself to do it...i just fall asleep. AND i have trouble getting up in the morning after that falling asleep at like 11 or 12. What's up with this?? thats an early time to go to sleep on average for me!!! :S damn...mom says i'm growing. i told her she's nuts. i've been this height since like gr 9. yes, 6 feet. fuckin nutz. lol.
yes so i had to get these two articles for my world issues class writted/typed up. i fell asleep last night before i even had found that i didn't have the 2 articles with me anymore.....which i realized this morning , when i had already decided to stay home and get it done and to hand it in by the time world issues is today....cuz it's the last day of the term!!! but i am now royally fucked. i think i'm going to fail. i'm so scared about what my parents are going to say. but i got ok marks in gutar and english i think...mabie science too actually. yeah....always fall a little short of my mark. try to do alright in 4 classes...i'll get a decent mark in 3, and the other one i screw over. never mean to do it, it just happens. except for that one end part of 4th semester last year when i decided film and video could shove it.....but it was really just a part of a separate cycle of the same thing. hmmm.
so this is ALL why i had to get stonned. i need time to myself to relax and do my own thing. i wasn't getting that lately so i just ,kinda like i mentioned in a past entry, decided that "at least it's better than having a mental breakdown. " (or something of the sorts) and that i really neede to relax. because i stress myself out when i think i've screwed myself over/my parents are going to be mad/disappointed in me. wow, doesn't that sound so sad? it does to me...also i knew i had weed and an opportunity to smoke it at an appropriate time. lol.
why the fuck am i justifying why i smoked up?
fuck knows.
oh wait no, i know...because i'm afraid of my parents busting in at any moment and finding me here stonned and get mad/disappointed in me again...that's why.
they've alread caught me stonned in the summer of gr nine...not since though. however, my dad always thinks i'm on drugs and is checking if he can tell. it's fuckin sickening. that asshole. "your pupils are really big"
"really?? well fuck you. if you paid attention to the things that matter more, mabie you'd see me more, because i would like being around you more, then mabie you'd KNOW that my pupils are always bigger than other peoples REGARDLESS. (unless of course they're Nial...that's just nutz :P no offence I love you Nial! lol..)
jee,...sorry guys, don't mean to be an asshole and always have long entries. *shrugs* *gives you a look like "what can i do about it?"........or right, i could shut up. ...i'll shut up.
meh.
So, yes i didn't go to school today....heh, funny, the last entry i think i was skipping then too ...also the last time i skipped...or was it the one b4 that? i'm rambling, you must be able to tell i'm a little twincy bit stonned. really guys, didn't smoke that much. ..now back on topic. yeah with these rehersals i don't have enough time to sleep. i just can't seem to function anymore on just 3 to 5 hours of sleep per night average that i used to. if i have to do anything on the computer/can't do in the cafeteria, i have to wait to do it when i get home...but when i get home i'm sooo freaking beat that even if i try to force myself to do it...i just fall asleep. AND i have trouble getting up in the morning after that falling asleep at like 11 or 12. What's up with this?? thats an early time to go to sleep on average for me!!! :S damn...mom says i'm growing. i told her she's nuts. i've been this height since like gr 9. yes, 6 feet. fuckin nutz. lol.
yes so i had to get these two articles for my world issues class writted/typed up. i fell asleep last night before i even had found that i didn't have the 2 articles with me anymore.....which i realized this morning , when i had already decided to stay home and get it done and to hand it in by the time world issues is today....cuz it's the last day of the term!!! but i am now royally fucked. i think i'm going to fail. i'm so scared about what my parents are going to say. but i got ok marks in gutar and english i think...mabie science too actually. yeah....always fall a little short of my mark. try to do alright in 4 classes...i'll get a decent mark in 3, and the other one i screw over. never mean to do it, it just happens. except for that one end part of 4th semester last year when i decided film and video could shove it.....but it was really just a part of a separate cycle of the same thing. hmmm.
so this is ALL why i had to get stonned. i need time to myself to relax and do my own thing. i wasn't getting that lately so i just ,kinda like i mentioned in a past entry, decided that "at least it's better than having a mental breakdown. " (or something of the sorts) and that i really neede to relax. because i stress myself out when i think i've screwed myself over/my parents are going to be mad/disappointed in me. wow, doesn't that sound so sad? it does to me...also i knew i had weed and an opportunity to smoke it at an appropriate time. lol.
why the fuck am i justifying why i smoked up?
fuck knows.
oh wait no, i know...because i'm afraid of my parents busting in at any moment and finding me here stonned and get mad/disappointed in me again...that's why.
they've alread caught me stonned in the summer of gr nine...not since though. however, my dad always thinks i'm on drugs and is checking if he can tell. it's fuckin sickening. that asshole. "your pupils are really big"
"really?? well fuck you. if you paid attention to the things that matter more, mabie you'd see me more, because i would like being around you more, then mabie you'd KNOW that my pupils are always bigger than other peoples REGARDLESS. (unless of course they're Nial...that's just nutz :P no offence I love you Nial! lol..)
jee,...sorry guys, don't mean to be an asshole and always have long entries. *shrugs* *gives you a look like "what can i do about it?"........or right, i could shut up. ...i'll shut up.