doubts, doubts, and more doubts..
Hey all,
I am having some serious doubts about a lot of things right now. I am really trying to convince myself that Ojai was the right choice for myself...I don't know if it was. I haven't gone yet. I just get scared knowing that I am going to away from my family and friends for 4 1/2 months. I am not going to be home for thanksgiving..and it is wierd because I am home every year for Thanksgiving...and it would be really nice to spend it with my family...but I can't. The other thing is is that with my grandfather being sick..I am worried and scared. Being so far away from home is going to suck. I understand that the indusrty that I am going in to is going to have us work on holidays and be away from our families..but I haven't graduated yet..and I am not working quite yet. So basically I am implying that I am 19 years old and just a kid still and all I really want is to be with my family! since I have been home for summer break..I really have enjoyed spending time with my family and friends and I realized how much I missed everyone here. I am never home because of school and even spending those weekends with my family were nice. I am just confused on the whole thing. I mean there is no turning back now..the contract is signed and I have a flight booked already. But I don't know if I am ready for this. So, it is basically doubts, doubts and more doubts...later.
I am having some serious doubts about a lot of things right now. I am really trying to convince myself that Ojai was the right choice for myself...I don't know if it was. I haven't gone yet. I just get scared knowing that I am going to away from my family and friends for 4 1/2 months. I am not going to be home for thanksgiving..and it is wierd because I am home every year for Thanksgiving...and it would be really nice to spend it with my family...but I can't. The other thing is is that with my grandfather being sick..I am worried and scared. Being so far away from home is going to suck. I understand that the indusrty that I am going in to is going to have us work on holidays and be away from our families..but I haven't graduated yet..and I am not working quite yet. So basically I am implying that I am 19 years old and just a kid still and all I really want is to be with my family! since I have been home for summer break..I really have enjoyed spending time with my family and friends and I realized how much I missed everyone here. I am never home because of school and even spending those weekends with my family were nice. I am just confused on the whole thing. I mean there is no turning back now..the contract is signed and I have a flight booked already. But I don't know if I am ready for this. So, it is basically doubts, doubts and more doubts...later.