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i've been trying to find some balance. but its tough. and now with turning in applications i know its time to concern myself with things i'd been putting off.
if i could only figure out what i want, things would be a lot easier.
or maybe not, if i knew what i wanted then i would actually have to make a decision and start working towards something. and i'm not about having goals right now. i've come to really enjoy this life i've made for myself and i know its about to change soon.
but other than this sudden rush of anxiety, life has been good. really good. its amazing to look back at just the last six months and see the changes i've gone through. this year started out so badly and now it's on such a high. but thats it right. it gets good and then it gets bad and all you can really do is recognize when its good and enjoy it.
...well this is me enjoying it.
if i could only figure out what i want, things would be a lot easier.
or maybe not, if i knew what i wanted then i would actually have to make a decision and start working towards something. and i'm not about having goals right now. i've come to really enjoy this life i've made for myself and i know its about to change soon.
but other than this sudden rush of anxiety, life has been good. really good. its amazing to look back at just the last six months and see the changes i've gone through. this year started out so badly and now it's on such a high. but thats it right. it gets good and then it gets bad and all you can really do is recognize when its good and enjoy it.
...well this is me enjoying it.