Long Break
I always end up with the feeling that, while I'm at OES, I'm not as good as the people who are at OES. It is starting to bug me...a lot. I keep scoring lower than all of my friends on stuff that overall doesnt matter, but it still brings the awareness that I am in the lower 30% of the grade in terms of academics...which is a hell of a bad feeling. I mean really, I am in all non-honors classes...and I have a B average. While this is good and all, for last year, I carried a B- average for the entire year...which sucks. That's barely a 3 point...and I expected a lot better from myself, seeing that intelligence wise, I test in the upper 5% of the grade consistently since 6th grade. God damn... I honestly don't know whether it is worth it for my parents to pay so damned much money to keep me at OES when I can't even pull a 3.5...I think I am gonna end up leaving OES just because it really doesn't make sense for me to be there if it is going to hurt my chances of getting into colleges in the long run. Plus, my parents are really pissed off at my grades, and once I now see the big picture, I think they have the right to be. It isn't that I hate OES...it comes down to a combination of everything else: academics, athletics, social life. I don't think that I am excelling in any of those three areas, and I would go as far as to say I am not satisfied in any of them either. Damn it...as the usual topic seems to be nowadays in this pathetic web site I call a journal.