I'm a bad person.

[skeeps]

Lord...every time I get into a relationship I fuck things up beyond belief. I don't understand what is fucking wrong with me sometimes, its like another person emerges from who I thought I was...It's really getting old. I have fucked up every relationship that I have ever been in...never the other way around. Not once. It gets fucking old after not very long, and I really want to know what the fuck i manage to do EVERY TIME that gets me in trouble. I don't intend to do it, whatever it is, I don't even know if it's the same 'it' for every different example. All I know is, I'm sick and fucking tired of being a bad person, especially to those who I want to be close to.

If anyone has any constructive insight as to this, PLEASE let me know. It is seriously driving me insane not knowing what I am doing wrong to hurt people so badly.

p.s. This is NOT the post to fucking message board synical comments and sarcastic remarks. Use my other recent entries for it if you must, but I want this to remain on topic.