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i have this feeling the first few days beofre class starts. the feeling where i tell myself that this semester is going to be different. it will be different because ive changed and im going to handle everything differently. but havent i had this feeling every single year before classes start? its getting redundant.
i tell myself that ill do better in school. ill have all these plans with my friends, new and old.
the fact is that i spent this past summer alone. ive dealt with alot over this summer, and i have had to experience it alone. I lost one of the most important people in my life and im still not over it. I lost my grandmother to cancer in June and I feel as if she was the only person who kept my family together.
Ive spent my nights alone instead of confiding in the person I had around for the past year and a half.
and i'm not scared anymore. I just hope that this redundant feeling actually works out in my favor for once :)
i tell myself that ill do better in school. ill have all these plans with my friends, new and old.
the fact is that i spent this past summer alone. ive dealt with alot over this summer, and i have had to experience it alone. I lost one of the most important people in my life and im still not over it. I lost my grandmother to cancer in June and I feel as if she was the only person who kept my family together.
Ive spent my nights alone instead of confiding in the person I had around for the past year and a half.
and i'm not scared anymore. I just hope that this redundant feeling actually works out in my favor for once :)