I feel crazy
I've been getting serious anxiety attacks over the prospect of leaving NYC. They're so bad, that I haven't even brought myself to send my resume to ESPN, even though it's past the time I told them I'd sent it.
I just feel like I'm going to miss everyone. It took a lot to start over here, and now it feels like I'm finally comfortable...and I have to leave.
Laura and I were talking today about my birthday. The weekend of my birthday would be two weeks before Con, meaning one and a half weeks before I graduate. I always do the whole BBQ and bar thing, which is always fun...but it would be nice to do something different this year. We were talking about a limo, or a hotel...but you know me. I get worried no one will come, or that only a few people will come, or that it'll be too expensive, and then we end up just going to Coyote. I'm sure that's what would happen again. Everyone's always so busy that time of year any way. And I don't want to be so lame that I plan a whole party for myself and only 5 people show up. Sophomore year all over again. *Shudders*
OK, I'm done babbling. It's Laura's birthday tomorrow, so I'm gonna be all YAY!!! all weekend. I guess I can worry about myself later. Just be nice to do something. I don't know.
I just feel like I'm going to miss everyone. It took a lot to start over here, and now it feels like I'm finally comfortable...and I have to leave.
Laura and I were talking today about my birthday. The weekend of my birthday would be two weeks before Con, meaning one and a half weeks before I graduate. I always do the whole BBQ and bar thing, which is always fun...but it would be nice to do something different this year. We were talking about a limo, or a hotel...but you know me. I get worried no one will come, or that only a few people will come, or that it'll be too expensive, and then we end up just going to Coyote. I'm sure that's what would happen again. Everyone's always so busy that time of year any way. And I don't want to be so lame that I plan a whole party for myself and only 5 people show up. Sophomore year all over again. *Shudders*
OK, I'm done babbling. It's Laura's birthday tomorrow, so I'm gonna be all YAY!!! all weekend. I guess I can worry about myself later. Just be nice to do something. I don't know.