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[skathingska]

you know, part of the reason i have such a problem right now is that i feel expendable. like as soon as she is around i am not really that important i just provide a change of scenery. its ok to leave randomly unexpected for some foreign country and miss my big party because i'll always be here so some how that makes it ok. i don't mind when you smash your elbow into my head and make up for it by practically making out in my ear.

some time i should actually say this out loud, its not fair for me to be like this but what else am i supposed to do.