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so much junk in our home like papers and disorganized crap its time to clean the house and for me not to be a pack rat or keeping things that i think "i might need in the future" aka papers or clothes. our house is small no storage area. im just sick of looking at the mess makes me depress. i look at these homes for sale that are foreclosure or not that are really nice, lots of storage and room. payments we can afford just dont have 20% to put down because we helped my parents with that money thats supposed to use on our house to finished on their new roof we paid for them because they didn't have the money at the time and they needed a new roof pretty bad it was about to cave in. they are almost done paying us back but that goes to our discover card because we have a kid now and gotta buy diapers and formula, baby food, wipes. make sure she has clothes to keep her warm. plus our food for tom and i. fuel for the cars. what goes on that credit card plus doctor visits and medicines. just 10 more payments left on the jeep and extra money in our pockets.
now i need to make sure Tom doesn't buy something we don't have money for....and beat himself up for it. he's done this a few times. so far he is doing good.
someday we'll finish our house.
someday we'll buy a new house with lots of room.
someday on no car payments.
someday i'll get better and not be sick for almost 4 weeks.
someday to have time for myself and clean the house really good.
and for the one day i wont be so depressed, feeling like i do everything and hardly any help. worrying about money, feeling guilty for quitting my 2nd job to have that extra money to plan trips to Texas or DC to see family.
but the end of the day i look back and smile because of the things Amelia had learned to do, making her smile and laugh. shes everything to me.
maybe i should stop looking at homes and wishing on it.
onto happier news. Amelia is 6 months today. =)
now i need to make sure Tom doesn't buy something we don't have money for....and beat himself up for it. he's done this a few times. so far he is doing good.
someday we'll finish our house.
someday we'll buy a new house with lots of room.
someday on no car payments.
someday i'll get better and not be sick for almost 4 weeks.
someday to have time for myself and clean the house really good.
and for the one day i wont be so depressed, feeling like i do everything and hardly any help. worrying about money, feeling guilty for quitting my 2nd job to have that extra money to plan trips to Texas or DC to see family.
but the end of the day i look back and smile because of the things Amelia had learned to do, making her smile and laugh. shes everything to me.
maybe i should stop looking at homes and wishing on it.
onto happier news. Amelia is 6 months today. =)