The final draw back
Ok so the last cupple of days Ive been through hell yeah whats new but fortunatly Im used to this. So I spoke to wolf last night and I would do anything for that kid becuase he made me realize the problem that i had. I realized that Im more then just a girl that needs her first to be there for her. Jonathan theres somethign seriously wrong with that kid. I waited for him for almost two years now after he said that he was going to give me a chance he never did and now i know how Jhonney feels he dose'nt want to give me up becuase I was his first. Im not going to be a bitch Im acually going to give Jhonney a chance if he has the balls to ask me out already but other then that I thank god for putting wolf in my life becuase hes the best friend that I have ever had in my life and what ever he wants or needs I will give it to him. As for me and andres we will never be and dose'nt want to talk to me ever again and he has the total right to do this. I finally made up my conclusion fuck main and fuck all the people in main.............. well not all of them becuase there are a lot of good people in main I have to admit, but for all the people that has anything to do with Jonathan fuck it yeah I will say hi now and then but other then that were not cool. Andres was right I was just walking into a wall everytime I would give in to haveing sex with jonathan,and he keept useing me contantly over and over. After andres broke up with me I went back to Jonathan becuase I felt that he was the only one that I had left and look I dont have any of them anymore and guess what Im happy with out them. Now i have wolf rosa and Jhonney and guess what thats all I need. Yeah I will always care for Jonathan and andres becuase they were apart of my life. Everyone looses something one day or another and I love it when I lost Andres because I just sat there and cryed all my pain and all the memories and now Im a stronger person,and Im just going to get up when I fall and become a stronger person and walk again. I have some much ahead of me and I have some much more to live for Im not going to keep dwelling on the past and cry each time. My tears mean nothing to anyone, I was born alone and Im going to die alone.